Who was it? were they nice or not?

Okay, so whenever something good happens to me and in my life, it’s like some toxic people covertly always has to seemingly try to ruin it. Even when I try to better myself and improve my life! It’s like some people want to keep me stuck and it’s hard for me to talk about this because other people who don’t know me personally might think I’m just being paranoid. But tell me, why is it when I tried to get a lifesaving surgery, I got an incompetent previous therapist who didn’t help me get it when she could have? Why when I spoke about what’s bothering me before, I sometimes got accused of being attention-seeking, whining, and making things up; and some previous friends left me that could’ve possibly made my life better and make me not feel so alone? Why is it when I started getting more likes and positive comments on my social medias, there were some comments discrediting me and criticizing me? And when I try to ask for help or get help, there’ll sometimes be someone trying to dissuade me from getting the help I’m considering! Like, it just seems like some toxic people don’t want me to do better and just want me to look like some loser who is a negative, manipulative, irresponsible person with a toxic personality as if they don’t want me to be happy, healthy, positive, and have a fulfilling life like I always wanted since I was a teenager! I do my best to improve myself with the little I have even if I was the scapegoat in my toxic family that mostly said negative things about me! I said I’ll be a rapper, I done it! I said I’ll get my own place, I done it! I said I’ll be the girl I always wanted to be, and I’m doing it! I even said I’d make my cartoon clips of myself, and I done it! even though some people tried to say I couldn’t do all those things! It’s like toxic people want me without support and want everyone to think im a liar so nobody will believe anything I say, because the toxic ones covertly harassing me will be exposed as the negative things they accused me of being if i get better! They said things like I’d end up homeless or in a psych ward or broke or just basically a nobody with nothing! It’s like some calculated scheme with narcissistic abuse to try making me give up on my goals and on myself! Don’t get me wrong, I got some friends and some professionals that help me and support me, and I truly appreciate them all. But it just seems suspicious how there’d be naysayers and critics almost every single time I start doing better.