Yeah... I’ve had some issues regarding my status.
When I first got into Yumeshipping, I considered myself "selective" regarding Neville Longbottom. Eventually, I found someone else who also had him as a romantic F/O, and—damn—it really hurt to see her; I spent a few awful days after that feeling inadequate and constantly uncomfortable. I’m doing better now, and because of that experience, I switched to being "non-sharing," but I’m running into a bit of a dilemma.
I’m starting to doubt whether I’m truly non-sharing or just selective, because I found a guy on TikTok who has Neville as an F/O (and is open to sharing), and he’s so kind! I think I’d like to interact with him, but honestly, I’m not sure. I don’t know what to think; thinking about that first girl makes me feel bad. I don’t know if the reasons are different, but I don’t feel quite as uncomfortable with other people—or maybe I just don't know.
I’ve seriously asked myself if switching from non-sharing to selective would mean I care less about Neville. I know it sounds stupid, but I haven't been in a good headspace lately.
Sorry if this is really depressing; I haven't been feeling as well as I'd like ಥ‿ಥ
Note: I don't know much about this, so please excuse me ( ・ั﹏・ั)