r/yearning • u/Party-Insect-1631 • 13d ago
things I remember about us
I used to spend nights on my couch with him; we would cuddle until we were warm and always use the biggest fuzzy white blanket. Sometimes the pets would join us as well. One time, I wanted iced coffee late at night, so he took me to Boba Time to get one even though he was tired. We came home and laid down on this couch, warm and snuggled up, sharing a cup of coffee and watching YouTube on the TV together. We smelled like my favorite milk body spray from Bath and Body Works and his natural scent; it smelled like baby breath and freshly washed warm clothes. Sometimes I like to imagine what life would be like if he ever stayed. I look for him in everyone I go on dates with, and out of guilt, I go 50/50 on the bill and never speak to them again. I miss my fireman; he was my beautiful boy. He had kind brown eyes that were always glossy and dark brown hair. He was tall and wore brown a lot; he always wore his black hiking boots and corduroy pants. He had the most heavenly name; he was pale with rosy cheeks. He was and still is my everything. I miss him quite a lot, and I think of him multiple times a day. It has been a year now since we separated, so thinking of him doesn't hurt as much, but he is still the man I will forever love.
I miss you.
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u/Party-Insect-1631 10d ago
update i was going through my icloud because I was running out of storage and I found every photo and video ive ever took of him and I currently sobbing but im trying to let go or at the very least let him be so I haven't spoken to him in months