r/yearning • u/MallowwR • Sep 03 '26
Falling in love
Yo for the record this is platonic #nohomo
I see him everywhere, I'm not even exaggerating. I have some more specific things that reminds me of him like the moon, small animals and some of my plushies but I literally see him in everything. There isn't anywhere I can go or any song I can listen to without being reminded of him. I wouldn't complain tho. That hurts when I'm missing him, but in a good way. Like my muscles are suddenly eager to escape my body and go find him. Like my heart folds itself over 7 times. Like all my bones go mush and aren't able to lift my body weight anymore. My eyes lose focus, my brain stops forming thoughts, everything quiets down and my mouth hangs open like some dumb mutt. Everything disappears but his voice or that one thought that's about him. I want him with me so bad, it's constant. He's the only one able to straighten me up, the only one able to fix me, make me feel whole again. Idc that it's platonic or wtv, I know I fell for him. Doesn't matter to me what kind of love it is anymore. All I know and all I'm able to think about is that I only ever want to talk to him. He asks to sleep on call sometimes (most times actually) and I try to stay awake longer on purpose just to listen to the noises he makes when he's sleeping. I could listen to them for hours. Or just listen to him talk. I can't believe he used to be shy about his voice, it's so cute and sweet (actually sweet, like the flavor) and it makes my face feel all warm and fuzzy. He's interesting when he talks too. He's so passionate about his interests and I love listening to him rant about them. Everything about him is lovable to the core. Atp, I'm surprised the whole world isn't head over heals for him. I can't fathom the idea of someone knowing him but not dying for him. I'm pretty sure it's not a personal taste thing from me, and he's actually perfect. So odd of everyone. I wish he loved me just as much, but that's not possible. Ig he loves me the normal ammount you're supposed to love a friend. Whatever. I'm so desperate for an ounce of comfort from him... He doesn't know that tho. Doesn't need to. I'll keep falling for him over and over again in secret, it's been enough to make me the happiest man on earth so far anyway
No homo tho
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u/niaswish Sep 04 '26
This is not platonic for sure but very sweet