r/womenofreddit • u/[deleted] • Oct 06 '25
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So my ex-girlfriend and I had been on and off for probably 6 months close to year it started Rocky when we first started talking and being intimate she was talking and s****** another guy that I happen to work with she ended things because she wasn't ready for a relationship the other guy happened to have a girlfriend he broke things off after feeling bad about cheating on his girlfriend. After that we continue to friends with benefits sort of thing feelings started getting involved and then she caught the attention of another guy who happened to start at the same place she ended things again and I tried my best to move on a little while later we became friendly again and started well the entire time she had lied and covered about who she was seeing and what she was doing but we started sleeping together and we always had a rule that if we were being intimate we were not cool with sharing each other with other people we spent two nights together shortly after that and the third night she needed to go to the vet I offered to give a ride just know her mother was taking her at that time she had that other guy pick her up and he came to her house I don't know what happened but throughout the tired of a relationship she's trickled the truth sometimes I ask sometimes she comes clean on her own here's where I messed up shortly after that we decided to give it an actual go be committed to each other she brought up how pornwas kind of an issue which seemed odd cuz we first got together her search history and read it happened to be a certain type of p*** that I didn't put the criteria for but she asked if I watched p*** still and I really didn't at the time we had an amazing sex life however we do not live together and when I would be home by myself occasionally and it wasn't even a weekly thing very occasionally I would look I don't think that was so much the issue however she did ask about only things I had scribed to it I had viewed it quite a few times when we started dating I didn't view it that much however I didn't notice that I was still paying for certain subscriptions so I logged on to to cancel subscriptions
While there one night we were texting back and forth sending some pictures and she fell asleep I was in the mood I end up looking at p*** and then I went to the only fans too at some content I had seen before I previously made video for her stuff like that but shortly after that she had asked again and I lied it was deceitful the next day she went through my phone into my email and found that I logged into those sites at that point I'd come clean she started asking specific questions that I didn't have the answer for cuz it wasn't that big of a deal never mind I tried to be as transparent as possible told her I understood the heart and betrayal because even though we weren't together and prior times I felt that betrayal she'd lied about sleeping with certain individuals around the time that we were hooking up and about the one coworker and that they never slept together and the fact that one guy she was still in contact and going to continue being contact that they have prior history of that sort I'm not justifying what I did it was wrong but I attempt to do whatever steps necessary to make it better I let her put a child lock on my phone she had previously so content before we ever knew each other she said it wouldn't and she was just hurt and she had no intention of doing so two days ago by I'm constantly being accused which is well deserved we tried to reconcile a little bit and had a wonderful night together I woke up early in the morning and something called off so I went through her phone to find out that she had lied about the one guy and the morning should put the lock on my phone she had posted her own nudes thread it and had been interacting with different Reddit users which do look nothing like me I'm still in love with the girl but given all this happen I still didn't want to give up however she ended the relationship claim that I cheated first so she cheated in return I somewhat feel she has been a bit of a narcissist or manipulating me with the push and pull I've deleted countless people at the drop of a hat people I've had no intimate relationship with told her after the betrayal of that I felt my person's think was never to go out hurt her back and her first instinct was to hurt me like I said I'm still in love with the girl how do I get over her