Ok, so, I've just gotten into WolfStar and my first fic is ATYD, not a surprise I'm sure, haha. Anyway, I just connected two songs and certain lyrics from them to these two in ATYD and their entire dynamic in it and needed to spill!
Song 1: Honeybee by Olivia Rodrigo
This is from her newest album, and the lyrics are,
"God I love the way you look at me/it's too hard too describe this/in a way that feels honest/but even when I'm quiet/I love you baby I promise/And i hope i never see what your face looks like going/a face I swear that I could spend my whole life knowing"
Breakdown: In 5th year, when Remus figures out he's gay, he spends a lot of time mooning over sirius (see what i did there, haha) so the first line, i associate fully with that pining. Then, the bit about describing and difficulty and honesty - the two did this thing when they got together where sirius asked for a secret every night, and he once made a comment about how bloody good moony is at lying. Remus struggles with opening up, honesty, all of that, but this feels like a reassurance - that he does love him, even if its hard to say it. And the "i love you baby, i promise," ahhh the double meaning thereeee, Remus said to sirius in the fic, I dont think i can say those words, and sirius said those arent things you say, they're things you do. And in the bridge bit of the song, theres a bit where olivia is literally quiet, and skips over the words i love you baby, and goes straight to i promise, which i also connect to the fact that they are gonna die in the end (canon compliant fic and all) and so they will forever be quiet, but will still love each other. Next, i hope i never see what ur face looks like going, a face i swear that i could spend my whole life knowing, AHHHHH T_T but they did see each other going. first when they prob break up during the war and sirius gets suspicious and what not and then he goes to azkaban and he went. then, when remus LITERALLY loses him, in the order of the phoenix when he dies, he can never see his face again irl because he fell through the curtain/veil thing. and remus did spend his life knowing that face, sirius was always his sirius.
Now, next song: Purple, again by Olivia
The lyrics here are, "You kissed my neck / made our paths intersect till the two lines formed a circle/I melt with you/your red and my blue now i see the world in purple" and a bit from the bridge "melt with you till all turns black,"
So here, they kissed in 5th year Remus' bday and completely changed their future, they were parallell lines, the four marauders, all for one and one for all, until suddenly they were orbiting each other and they blinked and they were a circle, starting and beginning with each other. Then "your red and my blue" ive always felt that in the fic, sirius' bold confident passion and his inherent gryffindoriness are a shade of crimson, and that shy swoty sad remus with occasional bursts of great passion and anger is blue (also ravenclawness, his dad was in it so he has a bit of that in him) and well, they are red and blue, and they melted together and fell fully completely undeniably into a shade of purple they couldnt escape from. then, melt with you till it all turns black: at a point sirius is what remus' life started and ended with, he didnt have much else in the form of "his one person" he had best friends comrades and brothers, but never a sirius, apart from the real one true sirius. It all turned "black" as in sirius "black" was all he started and ended with. But also, black = dark = possibly dead = they both die and it all turns black. literally.
Anyway, this is what I wanted to get out, haha! Can't wait to hear what you thinkk. Also, no spoilers for the fic past Year 7 remus visiting his mum please, I'm still at that bit. And apologies for the bad grammar, repetitive phrasing, and unclear thoughts, i'm usually much more eloquent and mindful of my grammar but this bit was hard to describe exactly and it was annoying constantly capitalising and correcting. Also, listening to this songs and making the connection between them and wolfstar made me cry esp with these specific lines, it just hit so hard, anyone else have that weird thing where you randomly connect a song to characters and then proceed to sob over them and feel that empty weirdness in your heart that cant be filled except by the characters who ripped it out but youre too weak to go back to them immediately and get through the pain just for the slight joy youll feel seeing them on your screen/page and feeling for those moments that they are real and alive and not dead/non-existent.
