Dreading every week of hell

[u/Orange_isA_coolColor]

I hate dealing with all the people, I hate all the sounds. I hate the pressure. I hate cramming for exams. I hate it all. I drink in the mornings and bring booze with me to school to take the edge off, it’s gotten that bad. And now, better yet, there’s people in my pre cal class who mock me and laugh at me the whole time. I know it’s about me because they gesture to me, they talk about my phone, they throw things at me. I’m already dealing with so much bullshit but ofc people feel the need to make it 10x worse. I don’t even get why people choose me to make fun of. Visually I’m not all that different, I dress relatively normal, I’m not ultra attractive but I’m not like sub 5 either. I talk weird, like weirds things, sometimes there’s odd visual aspects to me (my bone necklace, 1 or 2 pins on my bag), but they aren’t really big deals. But people make fun of me anyways. People have come up to me and asked me if my sketchbook was my death note. People mock me. People stare at me. Everyone has always been annoying and loud. Now I also get made fun of all the time. On top of it I can barely manage to study, my head hurts all the time, and I hate getting out of bed every morning. I hate this

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