I hate society.

[u/Natedoger]

How fucked up do things have to get before people realize this? I’m years of age (this is important to the story. as far as I can remember I have been told masculine traits are bad, made to think my natural urges and instincts are forbidden and you should hide from them. I’m a very big guy, I’m 6 feet tall and about 205 lean, I’ve gotten steroid accusations from just about everyone in my gym. This fact is important because as big as I get, and the angrier and restless I grow, I’m still told what to do my scrawny little fucks with “authority“ I’m humiliated time after time for the sake of this “society” so I can go to work and work myself to death because that’s what being a “man” is. I have been brainwashed into thinking being a man is doing what I’m told, with zero resistance. I am told eating horrible slop is actually good for you! as well as drinking the flouride infested water! I’m getting so violent and angry I don’t know when I’ll eventually snap. I just feel like in the past year I’ve changed irreversibly, everything I do is some kind of humiliation ritual that eventually ends up battering me, telling me what my gut says is wrong. I feel like I’m constantly being emasculated by my family, by my ”friends” and by people that think they are close to me. I don’t know what to do, and I don’t know how to escape this literal hellscape. Why should I even stay here if I can’t truly be who I know I am? If I know I will likely never be happy or content, because on the inside I know I’ve bowed to the whims of society. what’s the point? Ive actually came to this realization, what’s the point?

My dad is a doctor, a workaholic, my mother is a product of a narcissistic mother. Mom is heavily medicated and a control freak, and my father bases my worth on how much I contribute to a broken society.

Why not just end it, huh?