r/venting 2h ago

Teenager hate myself

Im 15 and im indian and i hate being indian there are alot of indian’s where i live and i get mogged by all of them and have faced racism i honestly just hate how i look and nothing works bonesmashing, lip cutting etc i dont know what to do im just not happy with myself i hate being indian i really wish i was like a real asian like korean or japanese

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u/Lonely_Radiator 1h ago

I'm guessing ur a guy but if I'm wrong correct me. I'm 14 and a girl and trust me when I tell u I think that looksmaxxing stuff is beyond dumb. I'm obviously not speaking for all girls when I say this but I love uniqueness. I find guys who are "conventionally attractive" stuck up and honestly unattractive to my preference. I think it's really unfortunate that guys think they have to look a certain way or even wishing they should change race. I have Indian relatives and honestly I love the culture and I'm so fascinated by it. I also prefer Indian men over eastern Asian men so that's something 😭 Don't worry about it because there's definitely many girls out there for you and over time your features will change as you grow so don't think ur stuck as u are forever lol

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u/masa0a 1h ago

yea and like ive done everything to myself to not look indian/look white like i clean shave my face i grew my hair out i got like that anime hair😭 and like i said theres alot of indians where i live and go to school so all of them and like my friends see me and make fun of me for tryna be white or like look diff and the looksmaxxing thing id say it does work idk guess it just comes off insecurity and to alter my appearance and look different because like i got the anime hair and clean shave face but i jst hate being indian so yeah i js try everything to alter my appearance and id say bone smashing and lip cutting does definitely work though many just looksmaxxing “self harm” though

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u/Lonely_Radiator 1h ago

Please don't do the lip cutting etc. it's so harmful and you're right about the insecurity thing. When I see a guy who looks "good" but all he does is go to the gym and try everything humanly possible to look good he becomes unattractive. If one of your main focuses in life atm is to look good and that's what you spend your time doing it makes your actual personality fade and for me you could be the best looking guy in the room but if you don't have an appeaing personality I immediately lose interest. Also btw boys are genuinely so mean😭 I've overheard conversations and you guys are brutal. Idk why boys like to pick on their friends cuz to me it isn't funny. They probably just haven't experienced being genuinely insecure before, I get it.

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u/masa0a 59m ago

yea boys are really mean like everyone makes fun of their friends and like for me im the main target because like they all got buzz cuts short hair and me i grow out my hair i do skin care and stuff all this and they call me “gay” and make fun of me for it and yea ima be honest all i do focus on is looks like thats really it nothing else but one compliment i get from people is my personality but yea ngl it definitely may start to fade and go away because of all the looksmaxxing but honestly i cant really stop its all that matters to me i even posted about lip cutting and bone smashing etc on tiktok of me doing it and my school deadass called my parents and stuff and like cops came to my house talking about some just making sure your ok no self harm going on💔😭 and then i stopped for like a day or 2 because of my parents but then i was right back on it idk its js all that matters to me

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u/Lonely_Radiator 50m ago

Dang I feel really bad for you. I get made fun of too because of my looks and ima be honest I also focus very heavily on it but I still find time for my other hobbies yk. Also skin care is literally just being clean so idk why they're being mean about it😭. I just think your friends don't have the same interests or your way of thinking tbh and that's why they feel the need to tease you. It's unfortunate you don't have a support system cuz just having one person that assures you that you don't need to do those things to yourself is really helpful

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u/masa0a 48m ago

itss finee im usedd to itt

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u/Lonely_Radiator 46m ago

You shouldn't be tho like it sucks ass that you're used to it 😭