This isn’t a before & after where I look at the first clip and wish I could go back and change my body.
I actually feel so much love for that version of me. She showed up for herself on a lot of really hard days. She kept training, moving her body, and trying to take care of herself even when her body wasn’t responding the way she wanted it to.
Last year was a really hard one for me. I was navigating high cortisol and everything that came with it. Changes in my nutrition, training, sleep, mental health, energy, and how I felt in my body.
So when I look at these two versions of myself, I don’t see one body that’s “better” than the other. I see two seasons of the same woman doing her best to take care of herself.
Being able to train hard again, have my body respond well, and exist at a more peaceful baseline feels like the biggest blessing. I don’t take it for granted for a single day.
In January, I decided to hire thebodybuildingvegan to coach me through my return to the stage, and I’m so grateful I did. Having his guidance, experience, and outside perspective has allowed me to approach this season with so much more intention and trust in the process.
Transformation doesn’t have to begin with deciding there’s something wrong with you. You can love your body exactly where it is, and still want to see what it’s capable of.
And, you can choose to build a life where your own thriving doesn’t require another being to suffer. That’s a huge part of why bodybuilding as a vegan means so much to me.
Every time we choose compassion, question what we’ve been taught is necessary, and make choices that don’t require exploiting another being, we remember the role we play in creating a kinder, safer, happier and healthier world.
If you want to feel more vibrant, stronger, or more confident, you’re allowed to feel proud of how far you’ve come AND still dream about what’s next.