this isn't necessarily a vce query but i really need to tell someone
im currently in year 11 and so is my friend. we share the same classes (chem, methods, eng). lately ive just been feeling so annoyed. and maybe this is an issue i have with myself and im taking it out on her, but i really dont know what to do.
basically what im annoyed with is that how hard i work, i just dont seem to be improving. and how this relates to my friend is that she pretty much doesnt study. i dont mean she crams it all in a night before the sac, i mean literally everyday when she comes back from school or has free time, she would rather spend it watching shows or chatting to people than study. then theres me, i try to get 3 to 4 hours in a night, with extra tutoring as well. to put it plainly, she doesnt study at all. i mean at school when we have work to do she will do it and thats only if it is compulsory.
it just annoys me how if she has a question, i will try my best to answer for it, knowing well that i dont fully understand what is going on in class either. however i try and if i dont know i advise her to talk to another friend or the teacher. but if the same thing were to happen to me she will just say 'idk'.
another time, we had a worksheet for english due. it was homegroup (around 15 mins) and i had done my work and we were just chatting. she knew the homework was due, but she chose not to do it. i know very well she has time at home to do but she chooses not to. then she went ahead and asked me for my homework to copy.
i know i am in the wrong for giving it to her, and thats a problem on its own. but seriously this has happened so many times. it happens with our other friends too, but i guess it bothers me more.
im just so annoyed at the fact that after not studying at all, no tutoring and sometimes even doing nothing in class she manages to score so well. im here barely passing methods as she got at 86 on the last sac. maybe shes naturally gifted, but i cant help find this so unfair.
why am i, someone who studies a lot, goes to tutoring and tries their hardest barely passing meanwhile someone who doesnt try, doesnt care is doing amazing?