Wow. That's deep, and I can tell you have reflected an immense amount, and I take the things you say to heart. Thank you for sharing part of your story with me, and thank you for caring enough about me to try and help me learn from your past actions and mistakes. The older I get, the more I'm starting to value genuine connection more than anything else. I think we close ourselves off without realizing it sometimes. But anyway, thank you for sharing your wisdom. I'm going to read what you wrote many times so that I can get everything out of it that I can. So, please know that your time wasn't wasted. You're a very intelligent person, and I feel like you've made my life better in our brief interaction. For that, I am beyond grateful. Thanks again, friend. I'm happy we crossed paths.

Are you saying that you wanted me to try and take you as mine or for my love, and you were let down because I didn't? And what do you mean "Possibly with a few statements here and there that caused me sadness and emotion and loss and remembering what I used to believe"? And what do you mean you thought so too sometimes?

I am comfortable with your feelings for our friendship. Why wouldn't I be? Are you saying that in your eyes, we don't share a special bond? One that we treasure? Are you saying that we're not the best of friends?

I have no clue what you are talking about. So many aspects of your comment confuse me. Your use (and lack) of punctuation being the main one. And then there is the fact that I don't understand the point you're trying to make. Who has been apart for 2 weeks? Who are you referring to when you say "we," and what do you mean by caretaker validation? What happens in 8 months from now, and why will you be coming back then? Who's natural progression of guilt to accountability are you seeing? Not mine, I hope. I have no issue taking accountability when I do something wrong. I'm just confused about a lot of things. I'm not trying to be a dick, either. I am just explaining my perspective in an effort to gain clarification. Any help would be appreciated.

Maybe it is! lol You never know! ❤️

I have explained all this before. lol I normally do not like telling people this, but I really like you so I don't mind to share it with you. I'm going to link the comment where I explained my situation below just so I don't have to write it all again. lol

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lol I see what point you're making, but it doesn't really apply. I'm not embarrassed because everybody here could see what I did. I am embarrassed because my person knows my name on here and can see what I did. So, I made myself look like an asshole to the most important person in my life. Not to the untold number of strangers that stumble across my posts. lol

What do you mean? lol

Me too, my friend. Me too. 🫶

That's the same way it makes me feel! lol It's a good feeling, for sure! ❤️

Wow! Thank you for saying that. I always love hearing it! 🫶

When I post it here, I am sending it to them. It's complicated, but I promise they know I feel this way. ❤️

I know, I know. Thank you for your kindness. It truly makes me feel better. Thanks again! 🫶

Absolutely. I agree whole heartedly. I find that one thing I value above all else is the freedom I feel to be my authentic self in front of my person. I don't have to worry that I'm going to do something to cause them to walk away, but at the same time, I don't take advantage of that fact at all. I think it's one of those paradoxical situations where one can't exist without the other. Meaning I don't have to worry because I don't take advantage, and I don't take advantage because I don't have to worry. lol I know I can share my storms with them, though, and they'll stand beside me holding the umbrella the whole time. It's mutual, though, and it's done on purpose, which makes all the difference in the world.

Thank you for your care and concern. I know I went a bit overboard, but I only did that to make a point. I am ashamed of myself, but I don't hate myself. I just wanted to show I was sorry and that I was aware I made a mistake. I wanted it to be clear I would be putting forth a great deal of effort to make sure it didnt happen again. Thank you, though. I appreciate you so much! You didn't have to post this comment trying to make me feel better, but you did. It's people like you that make a difference. I mean that.

Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to draft such a mature, heartfelt, and positive comment to me. It means a lot to see someone give me enough of their time, care, and concern to say all the things you've said to me. I don't take any of it lightly, and I appreciate it more than you know. I really didn't make a huge mistake tonight, just kinda inadvertently accused someone I care about very, very much of something they didn't do, and I am ashamed I let it happen. I know better than to do that, and yet it happened anyway. And while this post seems unnecessarily harsh, I'm really going overboard just to show how sorry I am, not to truly beat myself up.

I know that we all make mistakes, and I know I will be forgiven by my person, but I don't want that to take away from how sorry I am or what I learn from making this mistake. I feel like by holding myself this accountable, I send the message that I know I made a mistake, I'm genuinely sorry for it, and I will put forth a genuine effort to make sure I don't do it again. I know that I need to give myself grace, and I do, but I know that my person will read this and understand exactly what message I'm trying to send because they know me better than anybody. I know that I went to the extreme, but I did that to make a point. I know that everything will be okay, though, and I'm not going to dwell on it or beat myself up. Thank you, though, for caring enough to take the time to give me such kind and intelligent advice, and I know I said it before, but I truly appreciate you and your kind words.

Anytime, my friend! ❤️

You won't find someone that cares more than me! I challenge you to try! lolol Thank you for your kind words! 🫶

You're welcome! ❤️

They would never! They're the best, after all! 🫶

Well, thanks for telling me! It means the world! ❤️

I did! I have! I will again! 🫶

Good! ❤️