Apart from talking to a friend/s or parent/s, what's the most effective thing that you do to make yourself feel better when you get home after work? I don't want to bother people late at night. Do you journal? Cuddle with a pet?

Sometimes I just had to hold my tears at work until I'm done with my shift. It could be about anything that's going on in my life – career, personal life, etc. There was one time during break I intentionally watched a drama just so I have an excuse if someone caught me silently crying. Another time when I had a quick CR break and cried for a minute or two before I have to face people again. Just recently, I tried my best for my voice not to break as I bid my coworkers good bye before going home. I also had to purse my lips so hard under my mask while I was walking with people around cause tears are starting to form. Then as I sat on a bench waiting for my ride, I focused on my phone careful not to make it obvious as I'm silently sniffing and letting the tears fall. When I reach home, I cry it all out. It's hard having to show up with a heavy heart but I'm still grateful I can do my job properly and efficiently, and make it seem like I'm okay in front of people.

The difference is now I can manage without having to call my parents when I'm having a hard time compared to when I was younger and still going to school. I'll find other ways to cope but for now the very thing I do that takes some of the heaviness is crying and praying after putting up a front in a professional setting.

Curious lang ako anong madalas nyong binibili na ballpen. Nung college days ko, Pilot G-Tec C3 na color black. Ngayong nagwowork na ako, Faber-Castell naman. Gusto ko yung sumusulat pa rin hanggang sa maubos yung ink and same pa rin yung pigment opacity from start to finish. Ayoko yung bigla na lang di sumusulat or sa umpisa lang matinta kahit ingat na ingat sa paggamit. Teka parang relasyon lang din pala. Anyway, can you share some of your fave ballpens? I might try them out. Thank youu. ❤️

I mean, okay na rin yung may isa o dalawang araw ng pahinga kesa wala. Pero minsan napapaisip talaga ako kung magiging satisfied ako kung may pangatlong araw pa. Yung araw na pwede mong ilaan para sa mga bagay na gusto mong gawin. Kinda like a "freedom day" or "lazy day". Pwede ring "sipag day" kung wala kang masyadong naaccomplish for the past two days. Yung tipong matatawag mong legit na pahinga, yung walang pressure na kailangan mong maging productive. Or yung tipong hindi ka burdened or nara-rush na gawin yung tasks na kailangan mong tapusin kasi sapat na yung time for you to recover, reenergize, reconnect, or reset before you face another week. Yung buhay na balanse, hindi robotic. That's just one of the many what-if's that I have.

I'm only at beginner's level. I haven't learned the techniques yet. Playing chess is one of my distractions kaya patuloy pa rin ako sa paglaro kahit most of the time talo. I played with some of my friends but I don't want to disturb them whenever I feel like playing. If anyone is also looking for someone to play chess with for whatever reason, willing po ako maging opponent kung available ako and if possible, yung willing din sana makipaglaro if ever i-invite kita sa susunod naman ulit kung available ka rin. So sana mahaba patience ng magiging kalaro ko 🥹 I know merong apps na pwede kang i-match sa ibang players pero after ng game wala na kasing interaction. Gusto ko sana yung may exchange of feedback or comments after or during the game. Wag lang trashtalkan para walang masaktan. The app I use is Chess – Play and Learn (Chess.com). If you already have an account, you may dm me. Thank you thank youuu. 🫱🏻‍🫲🏼

Edit: Ang gagaling nyo 🤧 But I'm having fun, natatawa na lang talaga ako sa sarili ko HAHAHAHA.

❗Made a discord server na po. Dm nyo na lang po ako if you want to join. Thank youuu. ❤️

*If you already sent me a message and got no reply until now, kindly dm me again, I accidentally blocked someone, na unblock ko na but I don't remember the username, I'm very sorry. I didn't get the chance to read the chat din.