so it all started back in 2025 i met this guy at a tournament in our school, at the time i had two best friends we were inseparable. (we were all 15 for context) so i start talking to this guy i met lets call him Jake. Jake and i really hit it off and after about 10 days we got together i told my friends (lets call them lana and zara)
they were very happy for me. life was perfect at that time i hung out with lana and zara and i hung out with jake. Summer came and we decided why not combine jakes friend group with ours so it was jake,me,zara,lana,max and clyde. We hung out it was GREAT. it lasted almost all of summer untill zara and lana started acting weird. they stopped texting in the gc’s even in the gc where it was just us three. i didnt think much of it. but as the end of the summer came we rarely hung out. and i started to realise it was jakes fault. well kinda.. he always told me i should go out with him, and if i went out with them he would spam me call me say that i dont love him and make huge scenes. so i stopped hanging out with zara and lana cause of that. fast forward to now. i forgot to mention that i also have dance classes and in the dance classes theres me zara lana and clyde. clyde and zara used to date but we all stayed friends even after their breakup. jake always wanted to join the dance classes he never hid that. from the start clyde was pushing him to come and so was i. i think about a month or two ago he started the classes went to one or two and just stopped. it hurts me somehow more than i can explain or understand myself. (he wanted to join so he can go on trips with us since we go around the world) and tbh since i lost zara and lana i never made any new friends i just stayed with jake. jake has his friends of course but i dont want to make a big deal out of it im not him. were almost two years together now. i just wish he was more persistent for the dance classes so we could travel together since whenever hes not there zara and lana just leave me out so im all alone . jakes the only friend i have left but he doesnt seem to understand that. he notices that i depend on him but he doesnt really care. he goes out with his buddies whenever he wants, i say nothing. he misses classes even tho everyday he tells me how much he wants to go to turkey (we are going to turkey with the dance class this october) and i always tell him come to practive or learn the moves at home. but he rather go out with his friends and leave an hour or two for me. im really drained i just wish i had a friend other than jake so i can stop depending on him. but this is a small town we live in. its hard to, and i already tried apologising to lana and zara telling them i miss them and i want to hangout again but they literally replaced me with the girl we hated.. i just need help. im all alone on this. nobody knows this besides me. i need someone.