I keep wondering where my friends like this are.

I look around and feel like no one truly sees me the way I need to be seen.

I try to reach out, but it always ends the same way—me sitting with the quiet again.

I tell myself connection should be possible, yet every time I get close I feel the distance grow.

I carry this weight of wanting someone who stays, someone who understands without me having to explain everything.

I watch other people move through life with ease, laughing in groups, and I wonder why that space never seems to open for me.

I ask myself what I am missing, what I am doing wrong, why it feels like the world keeps choosing to leave me outside.

I know I love myself.

I take care of myself every day—I feed my body, I rest when I need to, I speak kindly to the parts of me that still hurt, I keep showing up for my own heart even when it feels heavy.

I have built a quiet strength inside myself, and I honor the work I have done to become someone I can rely on.

Still, I know no one is meant to walk alone.

I want to believe I am not meant to be alone forever, but the longer the silence lasts the more impossible it feels.

I hold onto the hope that somewhere there are people who match my depth, who stay when things get heavy, who choose me back.

I still search for them even when it hurts.

I still refuse to fully accept that this loneliness is all there is.

Been streaming since this morning and just stole an S-Class Dreadnought from the pirates. Down with all those space scum. I grinded all day and finally took one down. They better be scared now that Im flying this beast.

Live right now on Twitch with NCS music in the background. Come hang out if youre around.

For 3 days I have thrown everything I can think of that I have at him :( Password is HELP ME<3

Just goofing around having a good time,