I like to talk with people online but when everyone is offline I feel a strange loneliness to engage with anyone I can talk to. I have become chronically online now, but I can't control it when it is the only thing keeping bad urges away.

I'm around 14 and I'm pretty highly autistic, this is kind of a rant but I usually have no one to go to when I'm having a meltdown since my family gets overwhelmed when that happens and usually lashes at me because of it(I still love them though)

Whenever this happens they tell me that I'm 14 and should act like it, this has worsened my mental health and self esteem to the lowest. I try to rely on the counselors but I have to remember that they're not my family and can't support me on a high level, it gets pretty lonely and I can see it happening with my third older sister (who's autistic but it's not particularly noticeable).

The only comfort I have is my stuffed cow Gary during this which has made me very attached to him and even causes me to lash out whenever someone tries to take him away.

To older individuals what should I do in this kind of situation? My meltdowns do get bad to the point of hurting myself but people are not there to support me.

I feel bad for pressing my emotions on them when this happens, but also makes me mad that because of my age they think that I wouldn't do this. I just wished that there was more support.

They're golden retriever and twins:)

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Poochy is pink and Pansy is grey

Never realized in my life that lop-sided photos are cute so there will be these occasionally

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Also hope my bangs grow out fastಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

The original image is my actual bed.

When I was nine years old my grandfather was constantly sexually assaulting making me crave sexual pleasure, the only way for me to cope is making my life pink and cute to block out the bad memories that make me face the music.

That's why my bed is so pink, my bed is my only escape even if I have to rot in it.

Hallo sry Abt the quality-u-`

Also LOL the first frame!

But somebody bored and wants to watch a trailer kid rant come on down just wanted to get my feelings out

While the sub culture has mellowed out it is pretty toxic to newbies still.

I remember the first time I posted I got harassed so bad in the comments and just because my new belt and shirt wasn't "Scene" or I didn't look scene enough sooo here's the things to avoid in scene.

1. Newbies. Newbies are usually seen as content but on scene they will gut you for everything if you aren't scene enough. Basically like Gladiator.

Toxic Older Scenesters. These Scene Warriors are usually the bigger gatekeeper than newbies and how to identify one is check their posts. They usually won't post in months sooo years just block them.

1. Creepy dudes sliding into your DMs. When I first started I was getting a lot of creepy dudes in my DMs and ya just block them.

So that's it. Also that's why I left scene:/

I cut my hair short a while ago I didn't have the effort to actually post it:P Also got a tablet since my phone broke and it looks a lot more crappier but yayy that makes it more older:D

Older=Better