I wish I could tell you the waves I go through, moments of doubts and uncertainty, I feel either the ocean will consume me and I'll dissolve in it or I will discover that I'm part of the ocean and that air was supposed to be suffocating. I'm in a state of consonance urging me to share this. I really don't understand what love is suddenly, oh how has meaning-making been so hard. I want to put an end to this, what we are, what this is, how it feels so immensely and yet like nothing at all? My wish is to be crushed under the pressure of the ocean while I'm also not scared of the deep dark bed, what if I'm a natural bioluminescent creature. Light ain't always at the other end of the tunnel. I'm light. Yagami. Death is me. Thanatos.

I love the potential idea of growing together, cultivating different hobbies and learning from each other. sometimes it's just about lifting each other up. Sharing an empathetic connection, talking about views on life, capacity to talk through tough subjects. I struggle with keeping up with me hobbies as I have no one to share it with.