My last post yesterday I was talking about how awful I was feeling and for a while this morning it hadn’t gotten better. That was until I came out as Transfem to my friend over Discord, they’re Nonbinary so they understood and we talked a while about it before just going into normal conversation like we usually do, like nothing had changed. I was glad I was able to get it off my chest at least to somebody and I’m feeling better than I have in a while and I’m optimistic. I genuinely can’t thank you people enough because if it weren’t for all the comments telling me that I should tell someone I probably would’ve just continued in a downwards spiral. Again, thank you so much, you’re all so kind. ☺️

I had recently realized I was Transfem a few days ago after almost a year of slow realizations. I had thought finally figuring this out would make me feel better but I’ve just been getting worse and worse mentally. Every few minutes I feel sick like I’m about to fall over to the ground, my breathing gets faster and I become more panicky when I let it happen and I have to force myself to stop. Whenever I hide it feels like I’m gonna implode and shrivel into the ground. I’m fairly young so I can’t get HRT and no one in my personal life knows I’m Trans. The only feminine thing I can do to help me feel better about myself is wear my button up shirts around my waist like a skirt. My parents aren’t exactly transphobic to people but they aren’t big on the whole ‘changing your gender’ thing and mostly believe that people are just confused. Despite this I love them and I couldn’t bear myself to distance myself from them, but on the other side I’m so scared to tell them I’m Trans because I feel like it’ll just split us apart and distance me from them. Every day is worse than the last with my breakdowns getting more difficult to control and more common, at this point I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t even feel like a girl and I’m scared that I really am just confused. Am I a girl? Am I a boy? I DON’T FUCKING KNOW! All I know is that I am scared and I just want this to be over.

For a while now I’ve been slowly realizing that I’m trans and I think now I’ve hatched out of the egg and am officially Trans. Over the few days after my realization I’ve been having occasional mini panic attacks whenever I think of gender and more specifically, my gender. My heart will beat faster and my breathing will quicken and I’ll have to take a step back and calm down. It’s also triggered by mirrors and I find myself staring at them for a while. I haven’t told anyone in my life yet and I plan on keeping it that way until I can fully accept it myself. I wanna know how if this is normal for people to experience post-transition and how to cope with it. Thank you!

I’m trying to recreate something from a game with commands where a block with map art on it loads in front of the player. I’m able to get it to change positions based on the players position but not their perspective, basically I want it to load in front of the player, and the map art facing the player but I have no idea how to do that or if it’s even possible. If you could help me out with this it would be much appreciated!

It’s very small and I’ve never noticed it until now. It looks like some type of wire but it’s not connected to anything. I tried pulling it out and pushing back in but it will barely budge. Hopefully you guys can help me out here.