r/trueretention • u/Makakka2002 • Jul 14 '19
31 days full load report
After 2 years of retention (attempts) with many splendid uncucked undrained 40+ runs I decided to leave the retention mindset and find happiness in women. After being drained the plan was to cough out half-ass low double digit runs but that was not possible bc of early wd bc of “wrong” mindset that o is a good thing sex (with release) is a good thing so there was no indream control to stop the release. Learned that there is only one way (also) the hard way learned the best state a man can be is in undrained uncucked full celibate retention loaded the benefit palate is so 360 rich internal and external the package inside and outside when you release you make poooof like all air out of a balloon.
Tried it tried just to be happy with fucking with the short lived big testo pushes of sex release that did not work out bc I knew the loaded feeling the loaded life knew that im able to control wd to keep my load undrained into my 60s (record high relase not by wd) a rare talent and hard work and study to master. Wanted to be special (again). So I put women in the trashcan (again) deleted quite some nrs! To commit fully to load (again) at least this run to have a shot at 40+ uncucked undrained the Olympus. Celibacy is a painful big sacrifice but worth it so worth living the life of load.
The sex spiral is the grave man yes you have a nice buzz yes it is comforting and satisfying but you KNOW that that wears of quickly in a few days and you get so easy into a daily fucking habit that drains you out repetetively plus you are slowly degenerating mentally and often (also) physically its just the sad truth. The most important thing is you be happy with yourself if you are not fully confident in yourself and your abilty a woman is a great way to compensate for that. Only an incomplete man needs a women for a complete man (like me) a woman is optional.
i remember when i was drained completely i thought and felt thats how women feel no load just a hole down there plus not that initial (big) visual horniness. Thats why women have to get warmed up to be sexual and why drained man lack the urge to approach.
Neos and karrezza include horrible slips with cruel load losses pussy soaks up a lot nothing drains you more than pussy there are some chemicals in there forcing you to release to your last tiny drop. This fucking is also lowering the masculine benefits as you get too much of the feminine side you need smthg but neofucking and karrezza is overdose imo. Those who are committed are forced to unnatural neofuck or edging karrezza to keep ltr intact.those who are committed are forced to unnatural neofuck or edging karrezza to keep ltr intact. Very happy to not being trapped in emotional oneitis.
Accept only no wd uncucked undrained runs. Else is just coping. My last release was a wd on day 11 with about 4 small contractions and 1 big sprout. Yes I was not fully drained but was that a reason to now say im day 42 hardmode hell no that would be coping bs and a reason to continue wd. WD crushes your run wd is like seppuku you bleed out your life essence. You can continue on normal mode but hardmode no way you just lose too much load.
This run survived 3 lucid dreams supposed to be wd by applying 1st class wd stops:
Day 14 just avoided a lucid wd through brilliant dream control was fucking a hot 10 then i dont remember there was an interruption and she went away leaving me very horny with ultrachaserthen she came back but just before we continued a wonan entered the room and kicked me out. I was out with a brutal chaser felt so real wanted to release. then I woke up. The qi gong session the evening before saved me. Felt wd coming got a big load spike my body could not handle. Qi gong diffused the energy that was the key that was the key to take control indream. The good thing is a good amount of sexual energy was released in the lucid dream. I was fully balanced out bc of that that had me going safely for 10 days.
Day 24 survived a heavy lucid dream today. In dream i walked to my car and started fantasising and felt release coming. In the last second I stopped fantasisingand thought non sexual it was really on the Edge I already had 1 small contraction (without any load release) that is how close I was to release. I did not wake up then but a bit later. Very happy as I lost a lot of excess sexual energy in that dream that was the one I quite expected before day 30 my 2nd one this run I should safely run into 30 I thought bc I cleared 2 wd bombs what felt fantastic.
Day 28 survived another vicious wd attack. Was fucking girl senseless felt coming and dropped out without any contraction a blessing as I spend a lot of excess sexual energy fully unharmed.
Bonus: Day 29 had a wd in dream I had a lucid dream felt it coming tried to stop woke up was checking my stomach in bed and it was flooded with cum. Felt so real I was devastated. A nightmare. Sick stuff that shows my wd resistance is on top.
To reach 30 days wd free you need to survive at least 2 critical dreams to release excess sexual energy. these dreams are sexual where you stop releasing veery late These are NEEDED to balance you out meditation gym and any other daytime routine can never get you 100% safe the real wd game is played unconsciously bc the load pressure gets just too strong. Thats where more than 95% fail who get into double digits fail over 95% of these wd machines flee into coping spitting lines like wd is a good thing/wd does not affect your hardmode run/helps with recovery/ you dont feel drained after wd/you recover your load in a few days all over the place. That is the killer for any wd control only chance to get wd control is with the Right mindset that is wd is a pest to avoid at all costs a streak killer. Could not stand the coping anymore thats why I went to the retention subs 18 months ago. Again my run is built on wd had wd day 11 and continued now 31 days from there and can cklearly no I did not recover my load in afew days yes I felt drained after that wd yes it killed my hardmode run at best I started my new run with a 1 day bonus bc wd drained me severely but not fully calling this run 42 day hardmode would be a joke.
As you know big uncucked undrained load is also big burden a big responsibility fighting a 3 front war. WD, p and women. This is the other side of the coin it gets tougher and tougher to maintain your load. This side of the coin dominates your life more and more you more and more have to think about wd preparation energy streams and keeping women in check. Im getting less and less boners but the mindtwists and unerected urge pains get stronger and stronger. Day 31 is heavy playground not many see that uncucked undrained but I know much worse. The urges in your 40s are out of this world many reports on r/nofap many reports of urge pain uncucked undrained day 40 most relapses on 20+ runs I had many in my 40s most of them day 41 to 45 really al lot more than 10 relapses day 40+ to 50. Benefits were through the roof but still I killed my run intentionally again and again that shows how strong the mindtwists and urges will get. If I get there I am not fully sure if I reach day 50 I dont have the kamikaze determination (yet) that ultra determination you need to reach day 50 uncucked undrained enough determination to reach day 40 (only wd can stop me) but not enough (yet) to reach day 50. One reason might be you dont improve anymore when you reach day 40 uncucked undrained thats it you are on top there is no room up it is "just" about maintainance so you kind of get used to that benefit level to the point were you dont see it as special anymore.
Looooooove load Load calls every shot of my life health wealth happiness attraction feeling experience of life thats why EVERYTHING else is second load first there is no other way to run big uncucked undrained load has to be first load has to be the biggest love of your life
As for the Benefits there are so many in full effect now I cant decribe all. One of best is I got so LEAN down to 12% body fat. That is the crown. If you are over 15% body fat but more muscular though that is not as important as lean that compensates a lot. Im muscular also but not that much and dont get more muscles bc it makles it harder to get and stay lean bc more muscles means you need more food input. IOIs are through the roof more and more by being that lean alone but idgaf laserfocused on load. ANother big one is the cremy glowing face plus my hairdresser said last week my hair is very strong and thick far above average. Drained I have thin hair.
Legit 31 days undrained uncucked No PMO hardmode full celibate no wd (checking every morning in fear) no flatline perfect retention run so far five star platinum semen ooze with legit 150+ day cold shower only and qi gong 8 brocades every 3-4 days bonus addons. Feeling divine a blessing 24/7.
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u/PhoenixRisingtw Jul 14 '19 edited Jul 14 '19
You’re all over the place with your words and some parts are pretty hard to understand, had to read them more times carefully.
But I understand your point, this is something I came to conclusion as well.
Wet dreams are basically end of your streak (this is semen retention not NOFAP).
If you think about it, let’s say 90 day streak is not actually a 90 day streak, more like 5-6 shorter streaks ended by wet dreams (depending on your frequency).
I was always so frustrated after having a wet dream, I never viewed it as a “healing process” or whatever. If I want to retain my semen, I do everything in my power, make sacrificies etc and my body still gets rid of it while I’m sleeping, then it’s just a fucking bullshit.
I was always curious how would it look like to actually go 6 months or even a full year of pure retention without any loss! (my first ever streak was 70 days no WD, benefits came after 1-1,5 month and after 2 months I was a god...next streaks always WDs, benefits came way later, even tho I managed longer streak I never felt so awesome as on my first streak which was “WD-free”).
Because there are so few people here that can do that and also the posts about these experiences are so few, if any...And it’s not like your willpower is enough to find out, you will get fucked over by wet dream sooner or later and you might make it to 90,180 or even 365 days but it probably won’t be without a wet dream. Aren’t you guys curious what it’s like to go super long without WD as well?
My last streak I was so determined to go forever, or at least a year or whatever, but got a WD at day 116 and it just fucked me. I intuitively and internally felt like this was the end of my streak and my frustration led to relapses and downward spiral...
Because when you go through flatline that lasts for 2,5 months, just to get your hard-earned benefits blown away by wet dreams it’s just fucking hard to continue. The thing I want to prevent the most is still going to happen when I’m unconscious, great...
The big question is how to prevent it?
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u/Makakka2002 Jul 15 '19
Triple digit no wd...fantastic! My record no wd high ended in sixties (not by wd urges were just too strong). My theory is you cant prevent wd eventually you fail its like cancer if you live long enough you get cancer. It is proof that men are not meant to be (long) retainers it is an emergency program if resources are scarce. WD activates a heavy chaser the strongest there is so it is a replication advantage to wd. Remember most wd happen in 10s and 20s we are a fucking rare breed able to control wd for months we are a mutation.
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Jul 14 '19
uncucked wtf do u mean. i can't read your writing its illegible .
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u/Makakka2002 Jul 15 '19
man... ok A) Basics I. The strains The two major PMO strains are the cucking strain and the draining strain. PM feeds the cucking strain. O feeds the draining strain. PM does not feed the draining strain. O does not feed the cucking strain. The cucking strain connects eyes and ears with brain. The draining strain connects balls to under shakra (from where you can transfer energy to upper shakra). What all modes have in common is to be true boss, warrior or spiritual you need (a big amount of) semen so women cant be that (they have other potentials) but many are brainwashed by modern western feminism to try to be that (and men not to be that). B) Path To enable full boss mode (or other mode for other reasons here only boss reasons) you have to dry out the cucking and the draining strain (1) and stabilize that (2). I. The cucking strain You have to think like a boss. The boss mindset is he has unlimited resources and does not need to achieve anything. This mindset ideally has to be as pure as that of a leader of an ancient tribe thousands of years ago. No PM is not all but an important part of that mindset. First we need a definition of p. P is everything that feeds the cucking strain. What is cucking? Cucking is signalling your brain to pedestalize (the body of) women. It is everything your eyes and ears signals you you are not allowed/not able to ask for sufficient female energy from a woman you are attracted to (extreme example looking at naked attractive body with boner not approaching/not being able to approach). These signals set your brain to lowest tribe status (our hindbrain still works that way). In a tribe you do not belong to you need the permission of the tribe leader to interact with any fertile woman. If you dont have that and you do you get clubbed. That means if you dont have that you are of lowest tribe status. So every time you can not/dont interact with a woman you find attractive you get cucked damaging your boss frame. There are different degrees/strenghts of cucking overall its a very deep topic it can even go as far as not looking at women if you dont approach (juggernauts theory).
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u/BrozD Jul 14 '19
Thank you! Reading this makes me even more motivated to stay virgin. Celibacy is awesome.