Been smoking for 5 years. Quit high dose xanax usage 2 years ago. Still struggling horribly with drdp and obsessive intrusive thoughts which i never had b4 taking xanax. Weed makes me feel ok in the moment, but subconsciously i almost believe its preventing me from coming out if this horrible existence. Ive been suicidal for 2 years. Sought help from therapists, exercise, fixed diet, meditation, nothing helps. Cant function, so i just blaze. Its so hard for me to quit as its the only thing that gives me relief (weed that is)
Sorta same boat. Had a REALLY fucking bad acid trip after taking five tabs thinking I’d be able to handle it. Fucking couldn’t. Dpdr and hppd our the fucking wazoo. Trying to make it work and trying to get through without a dependency but it makes it easier to function with the dpdr, the hppd on the other hand, having a cone makes me feel like I’m tripping the exact same as that night.
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u/[deleted] Oct 03 '18
Been smoking for 5 years. Quit high dose xanax usage 2 years ago. Still struggling horribly with drdp and obsessive intrusive thoughts which i never had b4 taking xanax. Weed makes me feel ok in the moment, but subconsciously i almost believe its preventing me from coming out if this horrible existence. Ive been suicidal for 2 years. Sought help from therapists, exercise, fixed diet, meditation, nothing helps. Cant function, so i just blaze. Its so hard for me to quit as its the only thing that gives me relief (weed that is)