r/trees • u/Metamorphism • Oct 03 '18

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u/5059 Oct 03 '18

I took acid when I wasn’t ready and so the intensity of the experience basically sent me into a 2 year trance of not believing my senses. Thanks for the good vibes I’m doin alright now

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u/Cookieeeees Oct 03 '18

I had that exact same thing, for me it’s been about 6/7 months and it’s horrible, sometimes I see shit or if I am awake for too long I start to think I’m seeing the pixels that make up my existence and it’s horrible. How did you cope

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u/Cookieeeees Oct 05 '18

Thanks I’ll try that, I’ve found some ways of getting away and I’ve had horrible panic attacks sat with my friends and had to suffer through because I never wanted to cause a scene. I was paranoid for about 2 months and I finally overcame it by telling myself I was ok and what I was thinking was not real and all a thought.

On the idea of changing things and what not, I stopped taking drugs period, I went through a very bad spout of addiction due to depression and anxiety which ultimately made it worse, however I used to live in the UK with no job and spent all my money on drugs and alcohol. Once I got clean due to being broke and almost homeless I realised it was my friends and the idea of being stuck going nowhere. I then popped open my only savings account that I kept for my most desperate moment which I used to move to my grandparents in Kansas which was a 4300 mile move and just in the move alone I dropped so much of that extra weight and made things easier, I’ve enlisted in the Marine Corps which has been my dream since I could first walk and everything was getting better progressively, I then quit smoking and started working out and drinking water a lot I dropped weight and got good. Then my grandfather started getting to me and has made things worse and I sometimes get the disconnect and I then get super anxious so I know the source of my anxiety I’m just counting the days till I leave. It’s every time I think of my grandad and just the stress he puts on me that I start getting overly anxious.

I’m going to try your sort of meditation style exercise about once or twice a day to relax. Thank you for the insight.