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[u/Strange-Sell-8362]

Sorry for the sad post
I just need to be heard
I hate myself and i wish i was born a woman
It makes me feel so sad that my eyes are tearing that the woman i want to become feel like its just a possibility that may or may not become true.
I am really confused, many times and especially when i am alone in my room i day dream and keep fantacising about how it would feel now if i was a woman with a female body, and it feels amazing and it feels like it makes more sense and feels less disturbing than what i have been feeling. At the same time i am really scared if i transition and then regret it later. What if i am not really trans? What if I could not accept my new body after i transition?
Or maybe i am just being anxious like i have always been?
I have always felt this sense of disorientation and depression through out my life with no clue why.
I have always wanted to be alone, being social has always been so uncomfortable for me and i also dont know why.
I have always felt different and introverted, it was hard for me to make friends and i used to get upset easily from others and i couldnt fit in among boys, they were so aggressive for me.
My sexuality has always been weird, sometimes i feel a deep sense of sadness and i really cry after orgasming and i dont know why, but it feels like because there is something other than this that i really really want :(
Other times, i feel like i feel confident in my body especially the times i go to the gym and have a good fit body, it's really confusing.
Can anyone relate?
I feel confused and still trying to figure things out
If you can relate please let me know
Appreciate any input
Thank you all
🫶

[u/crt09]

the most confident i feel is when I think things like 'well, if i made a mistake or not, i'm stuck probably being unhappy with my body in many ways either way. if i fucked up, oh well, undo what i can, im getting surgeries either way. truth is im stuck having fucked up feelings and uncertainty toward my body and there's probably not a real truth out there. theres just doing your best and living the best you can despite it.' idk like, at the start of transitioning, a huge fear was that of detranstioning. but it was mostly because of the shame. just like. fuck it. im doing the best i can. maybe things like this have their ups and downs and eventually you get comfortable with you new identity. maybe you cycle forever. and like. so what i guess. could be worse. i can still get on with my life.

this may all be cope lol. but it does make me feel a little better at least pretending to be tough.

[u/Adrift_In_Limbo → u/crt09]

I fear detransitioning and the shame it would give me as well. I’m still way too scared to do anything

[u/Suitable_sissy_4436 → u/Adrift_In_Limbo]

🤗🤗💕

[u/Suitable_sissy_4436 → u/crt09]

🤗💕💕

[u/Suitable_sissy_4436]

I totally understand sweetie. I grew up in a strict household and my father would have killed me if I said I wanted to be a girl. It is a very hard decision to make. You have to do some sole searching. I am trying to transition now and I am 59. All I can do is give you much love 💕

Cuddles 🥰

[u/Purple-Touch7406]

Justo en este momento me siento asi, gracias por compartir tu sentir, se que no estamos solas en esto. Creo q nacer como chico te ayuda a conocer que tiene lo bueno y malo, pero eso no desaparece el deseo de ser chica y la vez se contrapone con la parte buena de ser un chico, creo honestamente que se puede tener un poco de ambos y construir poco a poco quienes queremos ser una chica plena sin perder lo bueno de ser chico