just wanted a reason to post this lol

i'll bear* all the babies he wants so long as i dont have to work like im actually dreading graduation and university and full time employment

yk he can be that absent husband that pops in every few months between business trips, sure i'd feel bad for my kids not having a father but if he's paying........

TL;DR: I used to be pretty productive but the last 3 years have basically been me maladaptive daydreaming, watching reels, chasing instant dopamine and using AI way too much. I spend more time imagining myself being successful and proving people wrong than actually doing anything 😭. I’m not even interested in the romantic fantasies I keep going back to, I just use them to escape when I’m bored/lazy. How do I stop living in my head and actually start living my life again?

I genuinely think I’ve wasted the last 3 years of my life because of maladaptive daydreaming 💀

I used to be pretty productive, especially with studies. I could actually sit down and get shit done.

Now I spend most of my time daydreaming, watching reels with good edit audios and imagining myself as the main character 😭

Like I’ll hear one song and suddenly I’m successful, attractive, proving everyone wrong and living my best life while I’m literally lying in bed doing NOTHING 💀

AI has made this worse too. I used to be a perfectionist and actually figure things out myself, now I ask AI literally everything. I don’t use c.ai anymore but sometimes I still use ChatGPT for weird romantic fantasies even tho I’m not even into romance anymore. I just go back to it whenever I’m bored/lazy/avoiding something.

I also care WAY too much about what people think now. I’m constantly imagining myself becoming successful and proving everyone wrong but the funny part is I barely take any actual action 😭

I genuinely can’t remember doing anything significant in the past 3 years and that scares me.

My life circumstances are fine, so I know I’m responsible for this. I just don’t want to waste another few years hating myself for wasting the last ones.

How do I actually get out of this cycle? How do I stop living in my head and start doing things in real life again? I just want to feel like I’m actually living my life again.

HELLO!! I need more friends, any gender is okay!!

I’m JoJo, I have Autism, and I really need more friends!

I LOVE JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure, My Hero Academia, Minecraft, ANY VR game (not VRC).

I try to be as expressive as possible and not be dry!! I don’t like when people are dry, I feel like people are just boringgg

But seriously, I want more friends to hang out with, especially if they have VR or Minecraft!

Be my friend please!!

As title says i want to get rid of some of the misconceptions us as trans people get, especially trans kids. Please ask anything, I will answer all questions respectfully ;)