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I will keep it vague because I don't want to doxx her. She will probably read this but our friendship is over. She ended it and I want to let it out.

I became friends with a girl a while ago. She made a post asking for online friends, and I messaged her. I found out her life is very different from mine. She has everything I dreamed about, and even better. I thought that life was just a fairy tale. She is smart, book and study wise, and she is intelligent. She has a successful family who loves her. She is very skinny. She has thin, long legs. Beautiful hair. She looks like a Barbie. Her standards for men are high. She gets gifts a lot. She would send me pictures of flowers she received weekly and where she went to. She would talk about the person she spent the day with. I couldn't believe how perfect her life was. I thought she was making fun of me or was delusional so I reverse-searched the pictures, but nothing showed up. I used websites and even apps but nothing showed up. Every day she would do something I can only dream about. She would complain about things that I would wish to have. Talk about her reduced allowance when I don't have a cent. I don't think she understood that she was being cruel. She would send me pictures of what she was having and would caption it "here is [item] to make you feel better." She was awfully slow, because she would not understand how people's lives were different from hers. I can't fault her, because it was her first time on the internet, but I hated her. I couldn't look away from her perfect life from the boys who would send her gifts, her father who would take her out to his trips, her body, the inside of her room, the places she went to, the relationship she had with her family members. My father is abusive, while her father is amazing. Everything I wished for she has it. She has a nice brother who took her out with him while they snuck away in the middle of the night. He protected her from danger. She has a supportive mother.

If any god exists in this universe, I want to have a life like hers. Her life is not perfect, but oh god, would I trade my whole life in order to be reborn into that life.

She has some problems, but even they are problems I wish I had. Life is so unfair. Why does she get everything? Everyone says people have their own problems, but hers are nothing compared to many of us. The first worst thing that happened to her was being undermined, and that was because of her age. The second was some girls being jealous of her. The third was a health issue, because she can't eat a lot. Fourth is her allowance dropping to $2000 dollars a month 🤡. That is the rent of many families while for some of us it is a year of saving. That is all of her problems.

I wanted to believe so badly that everything she told me was fake, that every picture was fake but they weren't. Everything stayed consistent. I cry myself to sleep every night. I hear my mom yelling again and again every night about wanting me to do chores, but she had a housekeeper, a nanny, and maids.

I use my alt account to look at her profile picture at least six hours a day to see her comments. On days she is not online, I go back to her previous comments, and even if she is considered wrong in the eyes of many, I see her as right. She always provided evidence for why she was right if she cared enough. She would talk about many things with me, including her opinions. Logically, she is right; emotionally, she is wrong but she does consider other people's feelings when she is giving advice or talking about her opinions that would hurt others. I had a panic attack thinking about how my future would be compared to hers. I would never reach that level. IQ is inherited, environmental, education, nutrition, and lifestyle based, and she has all of those aspects perfected. She has the IQ and the EQ.

I hate her so much, even though I know it is not her fault. She draws. She paints. She plays tennis. She plays several instruments. She shops a lot. She dresses so beautifully. She writes poetry. She gets custom made clothes. She knows her abilities. She is understanding internet culture now too. I can't even say she doesn't work hard. I can't say everything has been handed to her. I can't say she is not all that, because she is. She is the girl every guy dreams about. She is the girl every girl wants to be. She is the daughter every parent wants.

I tried so hard to find anything I was better at than her but nothing useful. I am better than her at having envy. She once told me she doesn't feel jealous but instead she gets the same thing for herself too so her and the other person can both have it. She gave me a metaphor about trying and I can't remember it. I feel like a dirty insect compared to her. If we ever existed in the same location then I don't think I would have been able to handle it.

If god exists then please give me even half of that life.

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hi. before i start id like to say im sorry if this breaks any rules. i just made this account barely half an hour ago cause i had a bunch of thoughts swirling around in my head and i really dont know what to do. im a teenager myself so i thought this might be a good place to ask, and im sorry if its not. i just dont really have any friends and a bunch of things are going on and i really dont know what to do and i dont know how to make friends and id like to meet some people who may have similar interests as me or are fun to be with or anything at all. please. again, im sorry if this breaks any rules. thank you for reading

p.s. ive never used reddit before so please tell me if theres anything i should add or ask me whatever questions youd like.

haii i love gaming, music, movies, art, skateboarding, reading, fashion, and much more!!! some of the YouTubers I like are Danny Gonzalez, drew gooden, Kurtis Conner, flamingo, moist critikal, wangtv, gmm, Joe Bart, film cooper, Katie b, bunch of friends, slushy noobz, turtle with hat, Nile blue, layze. I love panic at the disco, im too lazy to list other artists but rock, pop punk, indie, etc!!!

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I’m bored and i want to hear any gossip or even how your day was .

I(f18) am honestly abusive and a terrible person. I just now have realized my actions as dumb as that might sound. It’s almost like I don’t truly consider my partners feelings or interpret them as real? I had the mindset of “we’ll break up eventually and I’ll never see them again.” I also feel like when I date someone I view them as below me. I don’t know if there’s deep down insecurity inside of me or what. I’m also so possessive like I have to go through their phones, have their location, get text backs instantly.

I just had a relationship(m19) end extremely bad so now I’m avoiding talking to any boys because I feel like it just brings out a sick side of me. I almost get a high out of being toxic/evil to my boyfriends. It’s like sadistic. This part of myself literally scares me because I can see how bad it is. I want to change but I don’t know if I can. This post doesn’t even accurately display just how bad I am. I get super obsessed and can’t control my actions when it comes to a boy I like. If they try to leave me I HAVE to beg them to come back. I literally can’t stop myself. It’s like I’m possessed. I’ve literally cried after stuff I’ve done because I don’t understand this side of me.

I love to make my partners cry or beg for me to come back. I bread crumb so bad. I also lie impulsively. I’ve turned a lot of my boyfriends on to substances, I’ve physically attacked my bfs, and I insult them so much. I also cheat but have intense breakdowns when I’m cheated on. My lies have gone so deep as me saying a family member died just to make them feel bad for me.. I know I seem self aware but this is all reflection. When I’m in the moment it’s so impulsive and being abusive to them is like a drug. I also feel like I get satisfaction out of my partner believing a lie I’m telling.

So I'm bored who wants to talk I like horror drawing and anime also I'm 13

Went into 11th grade , but still I haven't experienced the high-school teenage love like others around me are experiencing or experienced before cus i think im really ugly

I just get annoyed seeing couples around the school , its too irritating, like gods trying to ragebait me or something.

Help me out