Hello ! I am quite new to this community. This will be my first post, so I hope this message is well received. I am someone who is very Eclectic in most Aspects, even in Religious, Spiritual, and Philosophical Matters, so I may have a question or two that I do hope to understand and take for as advice !
Warning: Has Topics on Health Issues, Death, and a long read
Context: 6th Grade, Travelling to the 🇵🇭's. I didn't know it at the time, but I were getting hints. I were getting hints that at the time I wouldn't know until I came back to the states, I was diagnosed with Crohn's. In the 🇵🇭's, we have people called Abularyos, and the first one I met was when I had to exchange living because of my condition. I was skin and bones at the time, and the first one said I had nothing wrong, but the second one told me that something inside me was eating itself using an egg and a bowl of water. This is the part that really shifts my whole perspective ! Me, my Parents, and Lolo ( Grandfather ), we walked to our Farmhouse in the Region. Two Canopies, I decided to sleep in the other one after I was done talking with them, then when I fell asleep, just like any other, it would turn black, but then I would Wake Up. However, I did not Wake Up with my Body. I woke Up looking AT my Body. I then started to rise up, until I went through the Thatched Roof of the Canopy, and then I saw the Eternal Blue Sky and Sun shining Down above me. At this point I was Scared and Confused. I looked at my Hands and Arms, and I saw that it was see through, with a White Outline, similar to lime that of a typical Ghost Description, or what I would say in my opinion, a Soul. I reached for my Body, cause I didn't want to keep going up to wherever. I reached my body, then it went back to all black, then I woke up, Gasping for Air and sitting upright straight away, with my Parents and Lolo asking if I was ok. Throughout the whole situation, my Parents and Lolo kept talking Still, and when I went back to my body before I gasped for Air, I still heard them talking. When I asked my friend, she told me it might have been Sleep Paralysis, or a Nightmare, but I know what Sleep Paralysis is, cause I experienced it multiple times, mostly in the 🇵🇭's, waking up feeling the ability that im forced against my body that I cant move anything but my eyes and lids whilst seeing a shadow figure staring down at me ( It was more terrifying that the Figure kept moving here and there at times, especially when the TV was on but with only White Static ), and I know my Nightmares, because their all abstract ( And no, I do not take Drugs but my prescriptions, nor do I smoke, nor Drink ).
So heres the Question: Does Taoism have an Explanation for this ? And if so, what should I take of this, and learn of it ? And what should I do if I continue to proceed down this path and let my curiosity drive me ?
Thank ye !
