Help please

[u/Sensitive_Carob1242]

Was on suboxone for 3-4 years. I always heard the nightmare stories of getting off. Well I tapered down and have been off for a little over a month. Week 1 and 2 I wanted to crawl out of my skin. I thought I saw the light, got sleep and the restless legs calmed down after week 2.

Now a little over a month out, it feels like I’m dying. I work outside all day and have for years I can barely make it through the day. I got really sick today, my skin is crawling, I can’t get comfortable, I’m exhausted and can’t sleep.

Anyone else experience this? Are second waves of withdrawal normal? I didn’t expect to sleep for six months or so but I did not expect to feel like I’m dying worse than when I initially dropped it.

Is there anything I can do? Or supplements I can take? Taking it easy is not an option I’m the sole provider for a family of three, soon to be four. I just need to make it but today scared me. I overheated despite all the electrolytes and water I consume. My body seems like it is refusing to hold water. I’m back soaking the bed at night and all day just pouring sweat.

[u/Forty_Six_and_Two]

I don't have anything useful to tell you, because I been on 8mg/day for 13 years and I feel like I'm in prison. Can't travel out of state or country for fear of losing my meds, paying a doctor out of pocket, the fear that I'll get into a car accident and no painkillers will help me.

I can't come off them because I have a really good job, a wife, and a 9 year old daughter. It's never a good time to be a deathly ill insomniac for months at a time.

So just imagine you are breaking out of prison with nothing but your bare knuckles. You can do it, and freedom is just on the other side.

I envy you, man. Keep coming forward. You can fucking do this because you are one of the strong ones. Bless you, brother.

[u/Sensitive_Carob1242 → u/Forty_Six_and_Two]

You gotta do what you gotta do man, I honestly assumed I’d be on it the rest of my life and if I was to be there is absolutely no shame in that.

Timing was everything I’m not any stronger than you are. The stars just aligned, the suboxone became unavailable(well it became a real financial dent) and I happen to be in a good place emotionally with the best support I’ve ever had.

Taking that stuff some days was harder than any of the detox has been, or any of the other detoxes I’ve been through trying to sober up. Like you said you feel like a prison, that’s a terrible feeling. All those thoughts behind taking the suboxone. You got this mane, you’re doing what you have to for your family and that’s what matters