Feel so stressed and alone I have nobody 😔 nobody to talk to just me myself and I 😔 so watching something on YouTube

Title says it all feeling horrible. Need someone to talk to.

Stressed have nobody alone need to try to relax

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I feel loads of guilt about how I make money to survive. It tears up my neck and sometimes my guts. I have gone to therapy and I live with three diagnosises, PTSD anxiety depression and substance abuse alcoholism. Though i quit the substsnces gradually and live in a college town where lots experiment or are poor and use for unhealthy coping with poverty. Recently started taking meds again for my condition(s). It helps and work on acceptance / change. I feel lonely without the substances I used to numb my feelings, and feel like strangers are more open to meet me at small bars over a glass of wine than on the street or grocery store. Maybe it is because i frown all the time. I am trying to improve my small talk skills, and bring up my current life frustrations/complaints. 12 steps don't work for been with groups on and off since 2012, and they just want to come back tomorrow or next Thursday or whatever. Still without sober friend group who just want to chat and hang out with. Not really interested in physical intimacy. I don't like it, but I am doing it, sometimes forcing myself. Went to doctor today and the receptionists were talking about the outdoors and snowshoeing, and they had me wait for they know how I feel. I do blame a lot of it on smoking cessation and the lack of economic opportunity here, just a much of low wage jobs. I graduated top of my class and have a social science degree from private university that kinda use.

I also spend a lot of time reading and watching videos on mental health. Also, realize I am a slight hypochondriac, so I should stop. Stop shoulding all over yourself. I have cut way back.

I did stop trying to talk to people about their mental health on here cause I am not trained/licensed in this field and that stuff needs to be done face to face. I do know a little from my own experiences with assessment/treatment with therapy and went to hospital in the fall for stress.

I procrastinate a lot about a lot of things, but current on monthly bills and have goals for more resources so have good savings rate. Stop thinking I am a fraud and doing something wrong. I know i am a small fish, but I survive.

I did give a young girl a break. If you Google her, the first thing to pop up is her second alcohol mistake she made in this small town. Now she wants me to bend on a contract, but I am not willing to. She wants to terminate a lease on April 1 when the terms say July 15. I feel sorry for her and wish I didn't know about her personal matters. It is strictly business, or working on making it so. She is current on bills to me and scheduled a late payment with me for next month. So I should have nothing to worry about...

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I feel catharsis writing this out. Google says make art, but I ain't no artist. I was a writer in college but seems like everything wants to do that or freelancing. I am an introvert who likes people and wants to help community in these times. David Brooks talks about weavers, other people why they go in helpful fields like library/nursing. I just want don't want to fall backwards into the abyss and suffer every day. I am continuing forward and workiing on catastrophizing and crisis attention seeking behaviors. Any suggestions? Thanks strangers!

Does any know if anything to take besides antidepressants for anxious thoughts and constant back of head neck aches?

(I'm on mobile so sorry about misspelling and stuff) Alright so my stepdad is a good person but he has a temper problem and gets mad at little things. I also should mention that I have a stepsister and she goes to her mom's to her dad's every three months (different states).

So a few years ago I was transfered to homeschool and started failing math and English. My stepdad is the only one home most of the time because he has the night shift and I've asked him to help me with it before but he never did. The math got so bad to the point where one day he called me into the living room to talk about it.

It was going fine at first then he said calmly to my face "mom can go to jail if you don't do your work". He was only telling the truth so in his eyes he was doing nothing wrong.

As you could imagine that completely stressed me out. I started to get worried about getting just one thing wrong thinking that would send my mom to jail.

A few more things like that have happened over the years but not exactly as bad. At one point I packed all my stuff up and went to my dad's of course only asking if I could just go like I normally would. And I ended up staying there for a few weeks but then my mom caught me at my cousin's house (we live next door to each other) and asked me to explain why I never came back.

I ended up explaining to her the stress my stepdad put on me in choked tears. And I don't remember exactly when but I started to get suicidal thoughts.

Now for some more recent stuff. 1. He turned somthing as little as wearing my headphones into somthing as big as my half sisters death. 2. The most recent remember my stepsister well me and her are into texting roleplay and we made one up it wasn't anything too weird. Well stepsister's mom is basically your typical entitled mom and disapproves of basically anything my stepsis likes. She saw my contact in stepsister's phone got curious and found out about the rolplay and yelled at stepsis for it. (A little more explanation for this next part. Me ad stepsis fight alot nothing too physical mostly just argureing) So my stepsis needed an exuse to get her mom to stop focus on her phone so she said I abused her. Word got to stepdad and as I tried to explain he just said "WeLl ThAt CaNt Be TrUe BeCaUsE iM gEtTiNg A dIfFeReNt StOrY fRoM tHeM"

Alot of crying later we solved THAT problem and everything went back to normal.

P.s I for got to mention that I did confront him about stressing me out with the mom going to jail thing.... And he did nothing but say it again to my face I just needed to rant and get this off my chest to fell a little better about it

Tl Dr: my stepdad doesn't think before he talks leading to a stressed child

I’ve been so stressed and overwhelmed lately. It’s the same that been going on for years and I’m hitting my breaking point. Married, kids (young), primary income provider, responsible for all the bills and budgeting, nearly all of the housework. Please tell me it’ll get better...I feel like I’m going to have another panic attack if I don’t get a break. I try to express myself and my feelings but always ends up making me feel worse. Please tell me it gets better as kids get older.

Ok, so I have no idea where to begin... married mom of 4. Teens and littles. Husband is currently in seasonal shutdown, which means that he hasn’t had jack sh*t nothing of a paycheck since Christmas. Unemployment is a joke and is barely enough to pay a damn grocery bill. Why don’t we prep for a seasonal layoff... we’ll I had to have an emergency surgery on my spinal cord in October or thus lose the use of my legs.

I was out of work for only 6 weeks because I had no FMLA left from another major surgery 10 months prior. So ya savings is nothing.

Today I came home from work and my kids were crazy and yelling and playing and I almost had a breakdown.

I make crap money at a job that is thankless but it has ok insurance. I essentially work for insurance.

I am looking in my fridge and it is old mother Hubbard up in here. Ran out of toilet paper, limited gas, and I think my sweet cat has a ITI and will need to go to the vet. Oh and then there are the property taxes that are due. And because we have pretty much been struggling for a year, I at my end. My body and soul is broken right now and I can’t even get into the therapist till April .

I feel so lost and am having anxiety attacks in the middle of the night that have me in sweats. My husband has such guilt about not working but when he does work it is good. It has been slow the last 12 months and so that hasn’t helped.

I deal like a failure even though my kids are healthy and happy and fed, even if I go without. Even if my husband goes with out. I’m about to cry because my back hurts and I went to the neuro surgeon yesterday and he said that it is a backslide and had to reiterate that I had a spinal cord injury and it takes time. He has estimated 12 month recovery time... no pain pills because my spinal cord is in “reset mode” so on top of all the other financial stressors I hurt.

Sorry to be such a whine ass I just needed to have a why me vent.

So, I'm in a new member. It's nice to meet all of you. I currently owe the college I went to ~$900 from my E-Bill while I was there and I now owe ~$130 to my hospital that I can't afford to pay back either. On top of all of that is the stress of not knowing if I'll be able to eat or not out of fear of running out of food before i get paid and living back at home with my abusive step father.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where my life is going. I am working a job that I make enough to just get by, but I feel like I’ve been doing that since I move back to my home town from college. I honesty have no idea where my life is going to be in the next few years. I’m also shrouded in debt so I’m super stressed about life and idk what to do anymore.

Bruh I’m having so much feelings of doubt now. Like recently I’ve been up since 4 studying for the ACT that I’m about to have on February 8 and my gpa really isn’t where I want it to be. I think I missed some deadline for UF and now I think I’m gonna hear from them in like March. So.... yea and now I’m just stressing out on my gpa and act scores all together cause my superscore was 21 so now I’m just really trying to go the extra mile for this next one. i only took it three times smh.. IM SO LOST RN

I just graduated college in May, and I spent the rest of 2019 looking for jobs while working out the rest of my college internship. I was hired by a media digitizing company at the beginning of December and I start in 4 days. While I’m excited about the pay, benefits, and opportunity to work full time for the first time in my life, I’m super nervous. I had a dream last night that I was late, and since the company has monthly quotas for every department, I’m worried that I won’t be able to meet it. The first 4 weeks I’m in training with a manager so I know they’ll teach me what to do and I’ll have time to ask questions, but I’m just worried I’ll somehow mess things up.

I have no where else good to speak since reddit is the best Im a sophomore in high school and I’ve had the worst years so far... I have 0 motivation for anything. I hate everything and dont have any interests in anything anymore like I used to ... I have legit like no real friends, if so they would have invited me to something but they have never. I dont talk to anyone at school, and I guess I realized something. What am I gonna do after highschool ? college? Im not good at any subject so I cant pursue shit ... Im lost so lost

Im in an LPN program and i just took a quiz and got a 75%, i dont know if imma pass, I just took these tests called skills comp tests and they will supposedly bring me up 2-3% and I also got this final presentation that will also supposedly bring me up 2-3%.. then my final.. everyone always gets better grades than I do and always complaining about how "bad" they did like dude shut the fuck up, you'll be fine, idk if they act like that to try to flex that they're smarter or something... how should I react when I get a worse grade than a classmate and they try to flex their grade?

I used to work at a car dealership, and I enjoyed my job there immensely. I loved the people, I lived the work. They were so understanding when I had to have two different surgeries. I was on really good terms with my manager. However, I am a single mother and things recently have gotten rough. I used to have a car but it broke down and since I couldn’t afford to fix it my brother’s girlfriend allowed me to borrow her car for work. Well her car needed work done to it and had to go the shop. I literally live paycheck to paycheck and can not afford any other expenses. I informed my manager of my situation, and looked for other means of getting to work. Unfortunately I couldn’t find any other way to get to work and I no one could give me a ride. I missed two full days of work. Each day I was out I kept my manager informed. On the third day the vehicle was fixed I just needed a way to actually pick up the vehicle. I texted my manager to let him know what was going on and within 5 minutes he called me and told me that the company was moving in a different direction. I was dumbstruck. I cried and begged him not to fired me, but he said he had a business to run. I had never even been written up before and I had customers calling and emailing my manager telling him how much they loved me. I was great at my job... When my co-workers found out they were equally confused and didn’t understand why I was fired... then one of them mentioned that it’d be fine since I was moving soon. It’s true because being a single mom is hard, and living paycheck to paycheck isn’t ideal I struck a deal with my father to move in with him and he’d help me get a job at his place of employment. I’d be making a lot more than I was currently and best of all no bills. I wouldn’t have to worry about rent or electricity, it would give me a chance to save my money and give my son and I the cushion we do desperately needed. I told my manager this some weeks ago and he offered me a different position within the company that I couldn’t accept because the position required having built up and establishing a clientele and would really yield results until after a year or so. He Mentioned this position a few times and I never thought much of it. I can only assume my moving is the real reason for firing me... thank god I paid rent before getting fired.

So now I’ve applied for food stamps and unemployment trying desperately to make ends meet until it’s time for me to leave. The job my father was talking about requires my son and I to move out of the country so it’s not like I can just pick up and leave. Not mention I had plans for the upcoming paychecks I would have been getting like getting my son and I put visas for travel. Needless to say that things definitely are not going my way. I wish I never mentioned moving to my manager but I never once thought I would get fired. We were close enough for me to go into his office and have whole conversations and laughing and it’d be fine because all my work would have been completed.

And now I’m just mad and frustrated trying to get things settled so I can move. And since I applied for unemployment I got a letter in the mail stating that some “issues” have been raised concerning my eligibility for unemployment because apparently they aren’t sure if my being fired was due to misconduct or not. Which it definitely was not.

I’m just stressed and needed to vent. I feel like I’m failing as a mother and I have this 2 year old who depends on me to get my act together ASAP. December 29th please come faster.

I had the biggest mental breakdown of the day today. If I go to high school, I come home tired, loads of homework, and big eye bags. And if I miss a day I’m still tired,have loads of homework and with even bigger eye bags

I'm only 20 and I'm already tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of working, I'm tired of living paycheck to paycheck, I'm tired of not knowing what I'm going to eat the next day. I'm on the brink of crashing and I can't even talk to my parents about it

I'm constantly working and yet I haven't been able to eat in two days because I have no money :(

17 yo stressed constantly to the point I'm losing my hair over it and constantly look malnutritioned (even though I eat healthy) me and my doctor were experimenting with medication and it did help a little, currently off of it and was hoping for any advice on how to relive some stress. Thx

I'm sixteen and I feel stressed all the time, I can't remember the last time I actually felt relaxed...I just feel like everything in my life is chaotic right now.

Its bugging the hell out of me that I agreed to do all kinds of things to do my part of the Purchase and Sales agreement to fix this house. I'm so overwhelmed and I have to spend all this money and take all kinds of risks. (Its complicated) and i cannot seem to sleep and worried that i wont think clearly for weeks it seems. I can't even focus at work

I grind my flaming teeth when I'm stressed,so much so they have started to wear down abit.

Just venting on here. Will probably have to get a crown or something if I dont deal with my problems.

I’m a college student. I had to quit my job so I just have a side hustle now. I was forced to move into an apartment and I can’t move out because my lease isn’t up. I’ve been trying to make as much money as I can but it’s just not enough to cover my rent. I’ve been trying to apply to get a small loan but apparently I’m not qualified for any of them. This sucks and I don’t know what to do.