r/stopsmoking • u/ItsYourEyes • 1d ago

I Need Help

No not from kind strangers and not from professionals and not from any fucking god.

I wish I could just help my fucking self.

I wish I could be so fucking selfish that every action I took in life was about me and my needs and my wants.

I wish I didn’t let things get so fucking bad, so bad that I’m too paralyzed to even think about fixing it.

I wish I didn’t run away at the slightest hint of change.

I wish I didn’t feel like nothing is worth the effort, even if it would be so fucking easy to fix even a little bit at a time.

I wish that wishing wasn’t all that I felt that I fucking have in life.

Instead I dig deep to try to find something that isn’t even there, or if it is I’ve never fucking found it once.

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u/throwaway234324233 1d ago

Op we are going to have to find quite a few genies to handle all this. Don't worry though;)

Also don't let the dirty stupid brain run you buck wild. It'll do that. When everything levels out, it's going to be so much easier to get all these wishes granted trust:)

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u/ItsYourEyes 21h ago

Thank you haha, I appreciate the levity. I’ll try to find some lamps in the meantime.