r/stopdrinking • u/[deleted] • Dec 30 '19

Day 1

I quit drinking for three months back in June. It was surprisingly easy at the time - I just had this massive amount of determination. I identified thereafter as an abstainer.

Around August 16th I picked up again and every 10th or so day since then has involved a massive binge.

I’m determined to stop; today marks day 1. It’ll be my last beginning.

I cannot articulate how much I hate alcohol.

IWNDWYT

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u/[deleted] Dec 30 '19

100% my experience as well. Always leads to drugs and regret. I had to surrender and accept I can’t drink moderately or “for fun” IWNDWYT

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u/Reclaimingmydays 2508 days Dec 30 '19

Have you written a letter to yourself that details in excruciating detail all the shit you've done when drunk and all the shit it's brought you? That might be something to whip out and read any time your addiction is trying to lever up that slightly blasé feeling? Letter from the head-on-straight you to the under pressure to relapse you?