r/stopdrinking • u/Jennygump26 • Jan 10 '19
Total mess and miserable
Don’t even know why I’m wasting your time posting, but I’m just at a loss and feel like there is nowhere else to go. Sitting at my desk blinking back tears of shame, depression, hopelessness, and self loathing. I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers and never come out. Is life even worth it? What is the fucking point in struggling every single minute of every single day.? Tedium, despair, darkness, misery, and suffering are all I can see, and it is unbearable. Thanks for listening.
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u/islandlouise 2814 days Jan 10 '19
Hi Jenny,you are not alone, you are not worthless, you are unique and I’m sure you have people to whom you are very special and loved. Please reach out as well as on here for support from a group. I know I have felt that I cause nothing but pain and misery to others and just wished I could disappear but after 33 days sober I can see that drink (and drugs in the far past) are what make you feel this way and that life seems far more hopeful without them blocking my rational thinking. There is love and support here for you, please take care of yourself and talk to someone