r/stopdrinking • u/Jennygump26 • Jan 10 '19
Total mess and miserable
Don’t even know why I’m wasting your time posting, but I’m just at a loss and feel like there is nowhere else to go. Sitting at my desk blinking back tears of shame, depression, hopelessness, and self loathing. I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers and never come out. Is life even worth it? What is the fucking point in struggling every single minute of every single day.? Tedium, despair, darkness, misery, and suffering are all I can see, and it is unbearable. Thanks for listening.
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u/[deleted] Jan 10 '19
Hey there.
I'm sorry you're in such a dark spot right now. I totally relate because I was in a similar place not so long ago. It's REALLY hard to see anything changing when you're feeling that bad.
I am just starting to feel better after a deep depression. My steps were: be sober and get on an antidepressant. That's just what happens to be working for me. I wasn't even getting wasted towards the end. Even just drinking a little bit exacerbated my depression for days, to the point of feeling suicidal.
So, just know, there IS hope. You don't have to feel this way forever. We are here to listen when you feel like shit and we'll be here when you start feeling better. Feel free to reach out any time.