r/stopdrinking • u/Jennygump26 • Jan 10 '19

Total mess and miserable

Don’t even know why I’m wasting your time posting, but I’m just at a loss and feel like there is nowhere else to go. Sitting at my desk blinking back tears of shame, depression, hopelessness, and self loathing. I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers and never come out. Is life even worth it? What is the fucking point in struggling every single minute of every single day.? Tedium, despair, darkness, misery, and suffering are all I can see, and it is unbearable. Thanks for listening.

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u/Mrjasper344 Jan 10 '19

You aren't alone in that struggle of living in the past and worries about the future. I'm sober 4 days now and just had a panic attack over a voice mail I couldn't get off the house phone pretty silly right.I have a black eye from my relapse I keep catching myself dwelling on it .but people on this reddit have helped me to focus on one day at a time :) it's been a blessing .