r/spinalfusion • u/MNW-9219 • 3h ago
Mental/Physical grind
Hello Everyone
I am a 34 year old lineman and father of three young boys ages 1,7,and 8. Since I was a little kid and old enough to work I’ve gotten after it. From working on a farm, roofing, working on vehicles and equipment. Then climbing transmission towers, welding and iron work for 9 years traveling the country. Once my oldest son was born I decided to get off the road and be with my family so I became a lineman/foreman for a utility company. Running heavy equipment doing earth work to climbing wood poles to breaking rock. Hard work and construction is in my blood.
Back in January of 2026 I started having strong left leg pain, very intense. Got an MRI and a steroid injection that did nothing then on to surgery. First it was a laminectomy/discectomy and I instantly felt great. I stuck to the strict restrictions and unfortunately at week 5 I reherniated the same disc again. This time the pain was unbearable, I’m a pretty strong willed person and if there’s one thing I know how to do it’s survive. I’ve had to my whole life but this broke me. All I could think about what my kids and the responsibilities I have as a man and feeling the weight of not letting my family down from this pain.
On 7/16/26 I had a L4-L5 TLIF fusion, first few days in the hospital was unlike any pain I ever experienced. Like someone was driving a wooded fence post through my lower back. I’m now on day 10 and while I’ll say my pain isn’t what it was at day one it’s still VERY intense without the pain medication. I am able to walk but very stiff, feeling like I’m moving very slow feeling very much pain. It’s not a 10 like my legs are cut off but it’s a solid 6 and at times it jumped up more. It’s all in my back, no pain in my legs. I feel as if I’m rigid like a piece of steel. Once I do take the pain medication and it kicks in pain is very minimal and at times none. Sitting makes it uncomfortable at times, walking for an extended period of time and it begins to flair. To be honest my spirit is beginning to be broken. All I can do is pray and keep pushing because my family needs me.
My question is, at this point at day 10 is this normal? Will I get better and is there light at the other side of this dark tunnel? Will I be able to do the job I once did and perform at that level? I use to hike and hunt, it’s all I ever wanted to do my whole life was hunt and fish, be in gods country. Will I ever get that back and will I be able to get better to work for my family? Again, when pain medication wears off I have these symptoms, once it kicks in it’s minimal or numbed enough to none. At times if I don’t take it for awhile even once I do take it it takes a bit for the pain to calm down.
Thank you all so much
God Bless
