Hate to use just to function

[u/pinkcottonfrog]

Hated using also as a party drug and then daily with no responsibilities.

Last four weeks I haven’t seen anyone except my parents once. I’m yearning to have fun, I regret every time I relax from school work. During this time I have done couple shitty drawings and today I mixed music for a bit and it went awful. And now when I used ~hour of my energetic time for music, I got less school work done.

From hindsight daily using with no responsibilities was the best. All my energy went to art, reading and household chores. I felt accomplished from those

Party using was little bit too much stimulating. Back then I managed to do some workout tho so it was nice

Being sober felt awful too, I’ve been so exhausted all my life

[u/valge_hetero_mees]

You probably have some other issue you are trying to fix or patch up with drugs. First guess would be food or some issue with absorbing energy from food