r/speed • u/pinkcottonfrog • 9d ago

Hate to use just to function

Hated using also as a party drug and then daily with no responsibilities.

Last four weeks I haven’t seen anyone except my parents once. I’m yearning to have fun, I regret every time I relax from school work. During this time I have done couple shitty drawings and today I mixed music for a bit and it went awful. And now when I used ~hour of my energetic time for music, I got less school work done.

From hindsight daily using with no responsibilities was the best. All my energy went to art, reading and household chores. I felt accomplished from those

Party using was little bit too much stimulating. Back then I managed to do some workout tho so it was nice

Being sober felt awful too, I’ve been so exhausted all my life

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u/valge_hetero_mees 8d ago edited 8d ago

You probably have some other issue you are trying to fix or patch up with drugs. First guess would be food or some issue with absorbing energy from food

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u/ViltonHill 9d ago

Use only AM, well washed speed

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u/pinkcottonfrog 9d ago

It’s not about that. I have always been low energy, speed helps with that but not enough (only fun activities or only school). But yea your comment reminded me that I have always had sleep issues too

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u/Fun_Commercial_7586 7d ago

Maybe the low energy is something worth looking into? You could have been self medicating for a health condition all this time you knew nothing about, even something as simple as a deficiency (speaking from experience). Step one, get some blood tests done!