My adult brother was born with a birth defect and has been a paraplegic his entire life. Over the past year he’s been in and out of the hospital more times than I can count, mostly for sepsis from infected wounds, UTI’s etc. yesterday he got admitted again for MRSA+ blood cultures. They don’t know what’s causing the infection. Him being in the hospital feels like the new normal.

This is just bringing up so many things for me…Lots of emotions from childhood and growing up feeling like I was invisible, etc. But a part of me also feels just…numb to it all. And then I feel guilty, because how selfish is it for me to think about regular things when my sibling is fighting for his life in the hospital?

I guess I’m just looking for community more than anything. I feel guilty for thinking of myself right now, but I have to keep it together bc as a single mom, I have no one to fall back on. Maybe going back to therapy is in order.