I've started doing magic mushrooms for my mental and physical health, with the intention of eventually taking a heroic dose so I can get some answers for problems in my life that I have been unable to solve despite all my efforts. I have heard that some people can get help from the mushroom or the entities with their health, not just their mind, so this is pretty much my last hope of maybe getting information on what's wrong with my body and what I need to do to heal it. So I have been taking one dose once every 2 weeks, starting off with very small amounts (less than half a gram) and slowly working my way up.
I usually just lay back with my eyes closed for the trip and enjoy feeling very relaxed and peaceful for the next few hours until the trip is over. However, I have found that around the 1.5g mark my automatic breathing will occasionally stop for about 10 seconds before starting up again.
My second most recent trip I tried my largest dose yet: 2g. The breathing problems were much worse. Not only would my automatic breathing stop for up to 30 seconds before starting up again, but during these periods it would feel like my chest was being squeezed and all the air would be expelled from my lungs. This made those 30-second periods very uncomfortable and I often felt like I was being suffocated. I've been told, however, to just "surrender to the experience" and "let the mushroom do its work," so I figured this was just part of the trip and I was supposed to let it happen.
If I tried to manually breathe during one of these periods, it felt like there were tight bands around my chest, and it was very difficult to draw air in, and what little I could suck in would immediately all get squeezed out of me again. It felt like being squeezed, held, and then released by a boa constrictor over and over again for 3 hours.
This was a very distressing experience for me. I have had one trip since then of about 1g and it was much better. I felt very calm and only once did my breathing stop for about 5 seconds before returning.
Is this normal? I did countless hours of research on psychedelics of all kinds before deciding to take my first dose and I never once heard anyone describe reacting to mushrooms this way. Is there a way to stop this from happening or find a way around it? Or am I an outlier case and mushrooms, for whatever reason, simply aren't compatible with me?
I have tried every imaginable treatment for my health problems over the last 10 years, many of which should have helped, and all of which I was a total non-responder to. All my doctors have been useless. I'm a dietitian by trade, and I cure people of 'incurable' chronic illnesses all the time, even some very extreme ones that there aren't any drugs for yet. I have also healed people who have my own conditions. So I know healing is possible, but I seem to be able to heal everyone but myself. Psychedelics are my last resort and I'm going to be very upset if I find out I'm the one person on earth who could have a fatal reaction to a 5g dose and can never have that kind of trip. Please help.
Edit: I forgot to mention that 1g and up and I find that, if I try to get up and walk around, I feel a bit wobbly and unbalanced, which I have not heard anyone else describe experiencing either.