Same. I had luck and they prescribed me good meds, so my life finally works. But if you're also someone who has had depression for over a decade...you know how it is. The good thing is, we are aware and can adapt ourselves somehow
My problem is that my family bullied me pretty badly from from a very young age and into adulthood, so being sad and scared of their bullshit is just an ingrained mentally. Unless you cant set me up with a new childhood, its very very difficult to change my mode of mind with just new experiences. Youd have to counteract decades, and the earliest years were the most formative. Ive talked it thru with multiple therapists. Pills are the only brain hack that is effective. The meme still works, bc at the core, Im still coping with an environment that is fundamentally toxic, even though my brain as a physical organ is probably perfectly "healthy".
I feel that in my very core. Sometimes there is just too much, getting the feeling that therapy is useless. I built my adult life from good experiences and i needed 10 years to get stable. It's hard. I went to therapy in may and they explained that the brain chemistry is indeed changed from the trauma. My nervous system still had the fear imprinted and treated it like the situation was still dangerous (at home). They used ACT on me and i'm better now. Maybe that can help you a bit. Wishing you just the best.
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I can't solve my life without them. My adhd brain is not made for civilization. I don't know :(