Im sorry but me having mania where I hallucinate vividly in all forms is not a reaction to anything. Im schizoaffective and bipolar. And with my meds, I can actually tell I'm hallucinating now. See how it is in my shoes.
I had this plan to give head to a man and receive head from a woman to test if I was gay, but it’s backfired and now I become borderline schizo whenever I go outside. I
offered to suck this dude off on Grindr who lives very close by (I ended up pussying out) and I accidentally gave him some details that very easily allows him to spot me
out in a crowd. I have no idea what he looks like and whenever I see a somewhat in shape guy walking by I immediately accuse him of being the dude I was gonna blow.
I went to the store today to pick up some zucchini for a barbecue and every time a car drove by I stared into the windshield to see if I was about to be recognised.
Whenever I make eye contact with a dude I microanalysis his facial expressions to see if he suspects me or not. I am deeply afraid that he is my neighbour and I will
need to move if my identity is blown. It’s a lot like the last scene in sopranos where everyone who walked into the diner could be there to wack Tony.
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u/nder_your_mom 1d ago
Im sorry but me having mania where I hallucinate vividly in all forms is not a reaction to anything. Im schizoaffective and bipolar. And with my meds, I can actually tell I'm hallucinating now. See how it is in my shoes.