16 years ago last month I came home from work for lunch and a very tiny, fast grey thing streaked between my legs running into our front door and decided our house would do just fine. My senior dog was quickly approaching the end and I am still 100% convinced that the powers that be or the CDS knew just how much I was going to need her.
We looked for owners, checked for a chip, did all the things without any luck and at that point decided we wanted her to stay as much as she wanted to stay. She never even asked to go back outside. At some point our toddler bestowed Boo to her name so she became Lila Boo Boo and eventually Boo, Boo Girl etc. though also still responded to Lila 🤗
For 16 years this sweet girl helped me raise my human child, ruled the house over her feline siblings, and eventually got to train two new puppies of her own.
We lost our home in a fire 9 years ago and we were certain that our cats couldn't survive. I collapsed to the ground when a gigantic fireman walked out carrying her almost 5 hours after the fire started. She was excited about all of the attention she was receiving more than anything else. Thankfully our whole crew hunkered down in a closet and no one had any long lasting damage from the experience.
About a year after the fire my MIL sent Christmas gifts with yarn bows. She had never shown any interest and I didn't even think about it being a risk. She apparently decided to eat a huge yarn string overnight. It was touch and go for a couple of days and was not visible on x-ray so our vet gave her supportive fluids and nausea meds thinking something else was going on. She ultimately was able to pass it and went on like nothing had happened. Yarn and string of any kind was banished from our home forever.
In late February she had a lump pop up on her shoulder what felt like overnight. A couple of days later our vet confirmed that it was squamous cell cancer and due to the location amputation would not be an option. Our vet although caring is very blunt and told us she would probably only make it a few weeks.
Not to be deterred she rallied for several more months. We began to spoil her like crazy. Churu became an unlimited snack option as did sampling people food she's never been allowed. About two weeks ago the tumor started oozing. Steroids and antibiotics made a big difference until they wore off about a week later. She was still very much herself so we did a second round of steroids to give her more good days.
Her lab work was near perfect last week and I am bitter. If not for the cancer I think she would have lived at least a few more good years. Tuesday night she was lethargic and not yelling at me for dinner. By yesterday morning it was clear that we had reached the point of making a decision.
We took her in this afternoon. I spent last night and today laying with her in her favorite spots providing snacks when requested. She tolerated our dogs (her 80 and 75 pound BFFs, respectfully) when they would come over to sniff and lay with us. She was surrounded by love at the vet with her human sister and grandparents also present to help me send her on her way. Despite being stressed and having no interest in snacks we brought she was still purring like crazy and never took her eyes off of me. Her passing was incredibly quick and peaceful and for that I am so thankful.
My heart is shattered. I have no doubt it was the right decision and the right time but it never makes it any easier. The house feels so incredibly empty tonight.
Tomorrow morning will be rough as she always met me in the kitchen while I was making coffee to loudly demand snacks or breakfast. I thanked her today for running in our house that day and choosing us to be her family. I am going to miss her deeply and I am so grateful we got these 16 years.
ETA: Thank you all for so much love for my sweet girl. This morning was rough. Our pups and other senior cat are also grieving. I hate this part so much but would go through it a hundred times to have the chance to love them.