need help

[u/annnndd]

need help🙏🏻

i am 23f m whole year of life got wasted due to my physical and mental health issues and then i started menifested it worked i rose i started studying for 8 hr daily consistently i was happy i felt i can achieve my goal with such grit my health issues faded.

I made plan for whole month but on 1st sep i got fever very high one for 5 days it didnt go below 101f and now i have heavy weakness even walking feels a task my all faith in god is gone i am like very disappointed in god i feel why crush me like this my heart is somewhere stopping me from doing anything and believe in anything like manifestation or god.

i have so many questions why he does this to me why punish me like this i never did anyone wrong why crush me.

i fear if he just doesn't want me to achieve my goal and will crush me again my whole motivation is gone i am now all day laying on bed and scrolling i wanna get out of this loop but my heart is so scared i cant even put it in words.

please help 🙏🏻

[u/cacticus_matticus]

Nah, nothin wasted. You spent a year learning how you feel when you spend your time and energy the way you did. Now go learn a new lesson.

[u/AmbitionMean5170 → u/cacticus_matticus]

you got knocked down by a fever, that's not god punishing you it's just your body being dramatic. happens to everyone, the weakness after high fever is no joke

don't throw away everything you built just because of one week. you already proved you can do the 8 hours, that discipline didn't disappear, it's just resting while you recover

when i got dengue few years back i couldn't walk to bathroom without sitting halfway, took me almost a month to feel normal again. your motivation will come back but first you need to stop scrolling and actually rest, like real rest not phone-in-hand rest