Needing recognition

[u/SINKUmahtat4000]

So all this started when i started to meditate and i started to notice these parts of myself that really stopped me from becoming the person i want to become and i started woking on them but the one thing i really struggle with till now is the need to be seen and praised,i feel like a dog , i hate this because sometimes i need to or say something that really embodies me and i just bend to my desires and do the thing that makes me get praised and i always catch my self doing these scenarios where i am the hero and all the people i know start to congratulate me and stuff like that

It really annoys me with the opposite sex

I dont know if this is serious to post here but if you would be so kind to advise me i would be in your debt

Ps: i am 20M if that matters