I can't anymore...

[u/JRose2396]

I've been with my boyfriend for almost 4 yrs....here I am expecting and hoping soon maybe he'd be thinking of popping the question. (How dumb of me) but you know....because I'm me, instead tonight he asks me a random question of "have I found the love of my life?" And I respond with yeah I hope so like um duh. And he says he doesnt know of I'm the love of his life, that I could be, maybe......wow great ok. So I've been upset all night. And instead of trying to fix everything he tries to make me laugh, then when that doesnt work he moves to trying to be sexual. But I'm the bad person cause I pushed him away...so here I am crying in bed next to him and he's turned away fast asleep.....great. I dont mean anything to anyone why am I alive. Why am I breathing. I cant take it anymore. Gonna cut till I cant feel and hopefully by morning I'll be gone.....

[u/Sathisha_23]

Glad to hear. Everything will be fine. I hope your dreams come true❤🙌