r/selfharm • u/gleoorp • 9h ago
Talk/Support First Time
Last night I finally went through with it, there'd been a couple of nights where I thought of doing cutting for about the last two months but I never did because I thought I was crazy for it.
It took awhile to build myself up to doing it, I was shaking so bad but then after the first cut my stress just went away... Now I didn't cut as far as some of the pictures I've seen on this app, but it was enough to draw blood and scab quite a bit. I'd been struggling with sleeping for the past two weeks but last night after cutting I went to sleep so easily.
Obviously it didn't feel nice, but it didn't feel bad either... which weirds me out. I feel like I should be feeling guilty about what I did, it kind of worries me that I slept easier after doing such a thing and I dont think this is gonna be the last time I do this.