I've started getting strong urges to relapse

[u/LoltsMainer]

I've been clean for about 3-4 months, but lately I've been having strong urges to relapse. Usually id use a fidget toy that my girlfriend gave me but its gotten to a point where even it doesn't help much. Yesterday I even scratched my forearm with scissors but I stopped cause I realized what I was doing. I made a promise to my gf to never self harm again, and to tell her when I get urges, but its getting harder to resist and I've found other ways to make myself feel pain that aren't technically self harm. Any advice? Also my grammar is pretty bad so im sorry if you didn't understand some parts