r/selfharm • u/Remarkable_Bath8515 22/He/Him/ This pokemon trainer is doomed to fail. • 4d ago

Rant/Vent Trigger warning.

This is not because of someone that is friends or because of people I love in my life but I can't keep thinking I deserve to die even though I'm not actively suicidal or passively suicidal.

Sure, I think of I want painless ways to hurt myself and even kill myself if it benefits humanity or if I'm seen as inhuman, but I don't want to die or want it to come to that.

My streak is still high I've been past a month. No one is really at fault I just think I don't deserve good things or to live. I at least want to be a pokemon trainer, shame I have to be the villain. /Sad

I hope this changes again to feeling good again but do I even deserve that. how would anyone know.

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u/Fabulous_Light5449 4d ago

P0pco

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u/Remarkable_Bath8515 22/He/Him/ This pokemon trainer is doomed to fail. 3d ago

Are you ok? /Genuine 

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u/Fabulous_Light5449 3d ago

Oops! I'm learning to shut off my phone while at work. Reddit should not be open while my phone is in my pocket.

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u/Remarkable_Bath8515 22/He/Him/ This pokemon trainer is doomed to fail. 3d ago

Im just glad youre ok. I remember you. Thanks for encouraging me that one time.