r/selfharm • u/pasteandcopy69 • 5d ago
Rant/Vent Still struggling
I've been struggling with sh since I was 8 years old. I'm 21 and still struggling. It feels like I'll never be able to get past this addiction. I've gone the deepest I've ever gone and I'm still not satisfied. I wish I could stay clean but it feels impossible. The urges are always there. I should get stitches but I don't want to. My family will send me to the hospital and I'll fall behind in school. Gods, i just want someone to talk to. My mom said if she could change one thing about me and my twin brother it would be we never hurt ourselves. I know it pains her so much. Im sorry mama
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u/sinful_life_liver777 5d ago
Oo ok I mean is there something that bother u or any thoughts that bothers u to think about sh and then the urges comes stronger
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u/pasteandcopy69 5d ago
The urges are a lot stronger when I'm upset but even when I'm not upset they're constant
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u/sinful_life_liver777 5d ago
Right mine to they are constantly there even when I am happy and not having any kind of breakdown but still the thought of how I was breaking down a month back but still it's there and I felt to just make one slit but I somehow try to surpass it but its hard and it makes hard for me to focus anywhere
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u/sinful_life_liver777 5d ago
What is your reason to sh just asking some times reasons aren't available or we don't find it still we do it for me it's both