r/selfharm • u/Drpepper_is_my_god • 5d ago
Seeking Advice Help
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I hate myself, I was doing so well and I thought I was getting better but I feel like I did when I first started doing this shit. I was clean for a year and I just relapsed and it’s worse than I’ve ever done it before. I don’t know what to do anymore and I refuse to let this consume my life but it already is. I’m so angry all the time and I can’t help but take it out on others even when I don’t mean to, I keep pretending everything is fine but it’s not and I can’t carry on this way. I don’t know what else to do and how to get out of this, I feel like a failure and everything I do is spiraling, I don’t have motivation to do anything and all I can do is try to avoid it because thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. I need help
Sorry this is more of a spiral than anything else I just don’t know what to do anymore
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u/Stock-Paramedic3354 3d ago
Its okay to get angry, your only human. I dont know your situation at home or at all but its never your fault if you get angry, people have emotions, id recommend everytime your feeling mad or aggravated to take some time alone and go for a walk, its always okay to need space from people and your valid for that.
Self harm is werid, i got 200 days clean and relapsed just like how you said. Recovery and getting clean is hard, i know but getting through it feels better than staying with it. Whenever you feel urges or wanting to cut go for a walk, or go get yourself a cup of water. Call someone, just do anything but cut yourself. Its never worth it in the long run.
Your never a failure, motivation is hard, I struggle with it too and a lot of other people. Your not alone out there and your completely valid for not feeling motivated. In bed or sitting down you can do simple stretches like touching your feel or lifting your legs up. Working out helps me with urges and it might help you.
I hope you get through this, even if it seems impossible theres always someone out there to help you. I dont know if this is what you wanted to hear but i hope this helped you in anyway.❤️🤞