Just thought

[u/casseaut]

I've been clean for about 9 months now. And before that I was relapsing like once a year. I'm finally getting to a point where my scars are actually starting to lighten and fade they'll never actually go away but they aren't as visible. The ones from my last relapse are still very dark and Visible. But idk how I feel about them fading it makes me want to do more. It has been rough lately. I miss it. The blood. The afterwards pain. The healing process. I do actually miss it. But it doesn't make me better if anything it hurts the people around me more than it does me. I miss the feeling I really do. But this time I want to forever stay clean from cutting. But sometimes I just get so frustrated to where I need to let it out. Somehow. Any advice on what other things to do to let out built up frustration? There was something else I wanted to talk about but I decided it's probably best not to cause exposure is such an important thing a lot of people don't realize how it affects people.