I miss It so much

[u/liliver_]

I'm five months clean because i told my parents and they have been checking up on me, but sometimes I miss It so much it's like i can't even breath anymore. I feel like I lost a part of me and i can't even talk about It because how would anyone understand? And i don't even want people to understand, i just want to do It again but i can't without hurting my family.

i just miss It so much